Chris & Jessica's Married Life

[70707Bride]

Wow I really should try to come here more often lol. Its just so hard to keep up with everything. We are remodeling our bathroom, it looks amazing now. I'll have to post pics. It used to be ugly brown paneling and now its bright green! New toilet, jet tub, and vanity eek!

[70707Bride]

Ok, so once again I haven't been on here for a while, I'm bad lol. But here are some pics of our bathroom. Its still not completely done.

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After:







Jet tub! Its amazing and so relaxing!

[Danielle9608]

Wow the bathroom looks awesome.

[70707Bride]

Idk what's new, um...I have 3 part time jobs now haha. I still work at Taco Bell and Kohls. Just got a job at FYE (music store), so I only work at Kohls on Mondays now. I wanna keep my discount! Not really looking for a full time job anymore, around here. I just need to get out of this town and find a job doing what I went to college for. I don't think Chris is into moving though. He'd be perfectly content staying in this town forever, in this house forever, and with his job forever. I just don't know how much longer I can deal with it. Lol... Ok sorry I'm venting now. He wants to stay here at least another 3 years or so. I am NOT happy about that.

Since around March I've been feeling like we got married too soon. Like we should have waited longer. Because I always planned on moving right after graduating and getting an amazing job. Its been almost 2 years since I graduated and I don't have anything worth bragging about. I've come to the conclusion that I need my dream job to be happy. He thinks I should just compromise and be happy with him and what we have. I'm sorry but I can't do that. I have dreams and goals in life and it doesn't involve staying here. He doesn't understand how much I love music and wanna work with it and be around it constantly.

I told him that if I had my dream job, which is basically a band manager, he wouldn't be able to handle it. He complains and gets jealous whenever I go see my favorite local band. He said I was right, he wouldn't be able to handle that, me being in that environment all the time (around other guys/musicians). So it makes me think what am I even doing with him?! Idk what to do at all. All this stuff has been on my mind the last few months and its not getting any better. We've been butting heads a lot lately and not talking a whole lot. I just don't know anymore.

Ok, thanks for reading...I had to get that out!

[Danielle9608]

I am sorry to hear this. In order for a marriage to work priorities about jobs, kids, and goals need to mesh and it doesn't sound like they do. Is there any way of a comprise? Is a city in driving distance where you could find you dream job but still live in your house? Have you tried marriage counseling? I wish you the best and hope you can work out what is best for both of you.