Jettadear
05-02-2009, 10:15 PM
Well, I've always heard the old saying that in order to have a rounded marriage you should have three weddings and a funeral before your big day. FH and I have been engaged for over two years and when the third wedding was scheduled for two weeks before our wedding, I thought how weird. I prayed it would come true and in a joking manner brought it up to my bridesmaid and knocked on wood.
Looks like we didn't get passed the funeral part. We found out late last night that my Aunt had a heart attack and died at 50. My parents, FH, and I are sitting in a hotel in the middle of Illinois on our way to my grandparents place in ohio for the funerial. I was so happy that most of the family was getting together for my wedding and I had hoped that this could happen more often but I didn't want it to be like this. I know I should be sad and cry but Ive never been the one to take death literally until its in my face. I was raised in the military background and in the moment emotion needs to be pushed aside until the appropriate time. I know that I wont be able to cry until atleast the funeral. It just seems like its so unreal. Almost like Im watching a television show in real life. It just doesn't seem real. We just say my aunt a little over a month ago at my shower and she looked fine.
We found out from her daughterinlaw that she had been complaining about being sick and out of energy for almost a year. She is a serious smoker so we think she may have thought it was cancer and assumed it was to late and didn't want to worry people. She left the insurance paperwork on the kitchen counter where it would be easy to find. (My aunt was always a slob.) She knew it was coming and come to find out it was something that could have been treated with a simple pill. Women have different symptoms of heart disease than men. PLEASE, if you feel funny, GO to the doctor. My aunt will be greatly missed and her life was one that didn't have to be lost yet. She left behind three sons, a daughterinlaw, and three grandchildren. Please don't assume what your diagnosis is, see a doctor. If you feel like you have no energy and cant get out of bed, it could be heart disease.
Looks like we didn't get passed the funeral part. We found out late last night that my Aunt had a heart attack and died at 50. My parents, FH, and I are sitting in a hotel in the middle of Illinois on our way to my grandparents place in ohio for the funerial. I was so happy that most of the family was getting together for my wedding and I had hoped that this could happen more often but I didn't want it to be like this. I know I should be sad and cry but Ive never been the one to take death literally until its in my face. I was raised in the military background and in the moment emotion needs to be pushed aside until the appropriate time. I know that I wont be able to cry until atleast the funeral. It just seems like its so unreal. Almost like Im watching a television show in real life. It just doesn't seem real. We just say my aunt a little over a month ago at my shower and she looked fine.
We found out from her daughterinlaw that she had been complaining about being sick and out of energy for almost a year. She is a serious smoker so we think she may have thought it was cancer and assumed it was to late and didn't want to worry people. She left the insurance paperwork on the kitchen counter where it would be easy to find. (My aunt was always a slob.) She knew it was coming and come to find out it was something that could have been treated with a simple pill. Women have different symptoms of heart disease than men. PLEASE, if you feel funny, GO to the doctor. My aunt will be greatly missed and her life was one that didn't have to be lost yet. She left behind three sons, a daughterinlaw, and three grandchildren. Please don't assume what your diagnosis is, see a doctor. If you feel like you have no energy and cant get out of bed, it could be heart disease.