Jennifer & Mark - Happily Ever After [Archive]

Jenn060306

06-14-2006, 10:06 PM

In the story of Cinderella, the end tells you that her and her prince live happily ever after. But you never find out how happends to them. This is my happily Ever After.

Mark and i were married on June 3rd, 2006 after dating for 6 1/2 years. We met when we were in Highschool, went to the same college and now Mark teaches Music at a local music store and i am a Graphic Designer for a Newspaper.

Everything has been wonderful so far. We have not gone on a honeymoon but we are planning on taking a trip to Niagra Falls, Ontario some point this summer. We thought it would be really nice to have a bunch of weekend getaways and discover more about the country we live in.

We are soon going to be moving into our first house together. We currently live in a condo which was perfect while we were going to school. Now its is an hour each way for us both to commute to work. So we are going to hopefully be renting a townhouse on the same street as Mark's sister. It's a 3 bdrm townhouse, a large kitchen and livingroom and dinning room. The neighborhood is really nice, and it is super close to Mark's work. In the winter you could see the music store. It will be nice to have more space and better storage in the townhouse!

I've been working on the thank you notes the last couple nights. It feels like it will take forever to do them. Thankfully i haven't made too many mistakes so not many have had to go in the recycling. By the end of the weekend i should be able to get them all done and in the mail.

Life is good. :D I'm still working on getting used to saying my new name. But i don't feel like anything has changed with us yet. Everyone said their relationships changed after they were married. We haven't experienced anything yet. Maybe that might come with us moving and me working. I will be sure to post how everything is going and all our little adventures together!

Jenn060306

06-14-2006, 10:19 PM

One of our Engagement Photos
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Mark and I being introduced into the reception
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Wedding%20Photos/introduction.jpg

Our first dance
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Wedding%20Photos/firstdance.jpg

LaceyinPgh

06-14-2006, 10:30 PM

Yeah! My trend caught on. You and Mark look great in your wedding pictures. I can't wait to hear all about your new townhouse.

Jenn060306

06-14-2006, 10:42 PM

Yeah! My trend caught on. You and Mark look great in your wedding pictures. I can't wait to hear all about your new townhouse.

Ya it did! I loved the idea. I was thinking about doing it but i felt like for a while i really had nothing to say. But now things are getting more interesting lol!
It's nice to keep updated on how everything is going now that alot of us are married now. Might be silly but i like to hear about your trips to the farmers market and the zoo. Hopefully i will have some good stories to share with everyone too!

LaceyinPgh

06-14-2006, 10:45 PM

Please with everything going on in my life, I always have stories. If I don't have stories I go out and find stories. I keep telling people, my life's goal is to retire by 35 because of all the crazy things I have seen and done. I am going to compile those into a big book, publish it, become a millionaire, and retire to my own private island in the South Pacific. Depending on my mood that day Sean may or may not ber allowed to come with me. :bbmrgreen:

WhiskeyGirl

06-14-2006, 11:38 PM

I love these married Journals! Lacey it was a wonderful Idea!!!! I can't wait to keep updated on every one's lives and what's happening! :) YAY!

Jenn060306

06-15-2006, 01:16 AM

This past week while i have been out and about and doing my normal day to day things i have come across some really bizzar sights.
One was a car that was full of trash (or looked like trash) bottles and food packaging etc. The backseat and passanger seat were full, up past the windows. I thought about taking a photo because i was so amzed that anyone could drive a car in such shape. But i hesitated. Before i had a second change the car was gone.
The second was a car with a very interesting paint job. I thought it was so neat i couldn't just let it go. I took the photo and decided at this point i was going to start taking pictures of the bizzar things i come across in my life. I thought this might be a great place to share some of these things.

Here is the car :D
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Weird%20Stuff/IMG_2041.jpg

Jenn060306

06-15-2006, 05:49 AM

Ok.... So its coming up on 6am and i have been up since about 4am. But i didn't get to sleep until almost 2am. This sucks!!! Normally i wouldn't care too much because i know i could have a nap in the afternoon if i really felt like it. But, today i am watching my nephues Owen (nearly 3) and Christopher (8mo.) It is going to be a long day i think.
I can't figure out why i am not sleeping tonight. When i went to bed i had a terrible head ache and i think i was having a little acid reflux or somthing because my throat kinda felt like it was burning and i felt kinda nautious. But when i woke up i should have been able to get back to sleep. It's so fustrating. I need to get myself back on track because i can't afford to be this tired and having this much trouble sleeping when i am supposed to go to work in the morning. ARGH!

I love that we have east facing windows cause when i am up in the morning watching the sun rise and all the wonderful colours and patterns the blinds make on the walls is nice. The light is so bright and pink against the dark blue walls, its really pretty.
Well, i keep yawning and it's nearly 6 so breakfast television should be on soon so i plan on watching it and maybe getting another 45 minutes of sleep in. :bbconfused:

AngelinLove

06-15-2006, 09:10 AM

Hey Jenn... I am glad that you are going to do a married journal as well!!! I just think that it is an awesome idea and am happy that it has caught on!! I knwo that after our wedding I will be starting my own too!!! I will check back regularly and see how things are going!!!

Jenn060306

06-15-2006, 10:37 PM

Well today was interesting. I watched my SIL's boy's for the day. It was fun but Owen was being a bit of a turd. I really wanted to go outside because it was sooooo nice! But he was having a fit so i told him if he wasn't going to be nice he had to have a time out. He said he would be good. Fine. I asked him to get his shoes, next thing i know he's gone upstairs to his room. When i asked him what he was doing he freaked and said he was having a time out. lol. ok give yourself one kid. Eventually i got him outside where he had a grand old time with all the other 2 year olds! I hung out with the other moms on the street and they got on my case that it was my turn to have kids now. Mmmmm maybe next year. After lunch I put Christopher down for a nap and Owen and i watched a movie. We both fell asleep. It was a pretty good afternoon. Quiet, kinda boaring when i woke up and they were still asleep.
Once Kim got home i headed off to go find out what was happening with my mom. She had surgery today to remove her gallblater. She was supposed to only be there for day surgery but they had to make a larger insission (sp?) then they had intended. So they are keeping her for the night. Maybe a little more. I'm not sure. I popped over to the hospital to visit her, she was still feeling pretty groggy and dopped up on Morphine. Her spirits are high so its good. I'm going to take her a bunch of fun chick flick type movies tommorrow so she's got stuff to watch when nothing good is on TV.

On my way home i stopped in at Wal-Mart to get some photo albums for the pictures on the disposable cameras. Got 2 really nice canvas covered albums in beige. All the other colours were really easter egg like. (bleh) Anyways, while i was there i ran into the girl who actually introduced me to Mark. It was really neat to see her. It had been so long since i had last seen her. It was nice to catch up. I am so gratefull that she introduced us. I'm sure we would have found eachother eventually. But The timming wwas perfect then. :D

Jenn060306

06-16-2006, 11:25 PM

Today was pretty useless... It actually has kinda really fustrated me. I went down to see my mom this morning. But she was still at the hospital and i couldn't go until 2 cause thats when visiting hours were. So i said to my dad i was going to have a nap and that i would go with him. Well i woke up and came out to the hall as he was going down stairs on his way out the door. He told me where he was going then just stared at me. He didn't ask if i wanted to come or anything. He said he should go cause she's waiting. It really seemed like he didn't want me to come. So i sat arround at his house till he came back. We had dinner then we both went to the hospital. It was very strange. A bit fustrating because i haven't been able to go see her on my own yet. It looks like it will be Sunday at the earliest that she'll get out. She hasn't been able to eat or keep much down yet. She seems alot better today. Although it looks as if the nurse may have beaten her because she has so many bruises from where they have put in i.v's 2 of them stopped working today too it hasn't been good. But she's in no pain so its all good.

Other then that my day wasn't too eventful. I managed to get my foot caught in the car door when i picked up mark. It slamed on my ankle and it hurts like :censored: It swelled up pretty quick and is starting to bruise. It's great!

I'm glad to be home. I really wish i didn't have to get up early tommorrow so mark could go meet with a client at 10am. my plan was to sleep in and then head to newmarket in the early afternoon. :bbconfused: oh well....

Jenn060306

06-16-2006, 11:28 PM

Odd Photos of the day:

http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Weird%20Stuff/IMG_2054.jpg
I thought this was pretty cute. The big one has its arm arround the little one like a hug. The construction workers have been leaving them parked this way each night. I guess its their way of securing it.

http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Weird%20Stuff/IMG_2051.jpg
I saw this on my way home from the hospital. A huge stuffed dog that you would win at a fair or somthing up in a tree.

Kacie_bride

06-17-2006, 11:23 AM

I hope your mom gets well soon! I also hope she gets to come home from the hospital as soon as possible as well! I'll be thinking about her!

WhiskeyGirl

06-17-2006, 12:01 PM

Wow Jenn, you have an exciting life! lol. Everything around you seems so odd, and I love it! I want to move to Ontario for that. IF and WHEN we move to Saskatchewan you can bet I'm going to take pictures of their wild a$$ house colors they have over there. NO joke, there is a pink house, a bright yellow house, and a few other really UGLY colored houses! I always joke with Matt and tell him that's what we're gonna do when we move there and build our house, we're gonna paint it a rainbow color so it fits right in with the other ugly houses! lol

I hope your mom is feeling better soon! Sounds like she's having a rough go of things right now. I will keep her in my thoughts. Hope she is feeling one hundred and fifty percent soon!! :)

LaceyinPgh

06-17-2006, 12:49 PM

I hope your mom gets to come home today. I know how hard it is on everyone when you have someone in the family in the hospital for any amount of time.

Jenn060306

06-18-2006, 06:57 AM

I know, isn't my life an epic tale?! HA HA! Yeah
Soo Mar and i went to see mom in the hospital. She was doing pretty well. We went for a walk, and chatted for almost an hour. She got real soup for lunch. First meal since the surgery. Hopefully it didn't end up making her sick in the end. She may be coming home this afternoon. Unfortunetly i won't be able to get down there to visit with her today so i am going to stop in after work on Monday.
The real highlight of Mark and my day yesterday was us getting our first Costco membership! woot woot! Mark eyed up all the electronics. He wants a new laptop so he might get it there. Not sure though. We bought some gifts for our dads, books on Astronomy for my dad, books on the war for his step dad, and the new burton cummings cd for his dad. Bulk orange juice was also very exsiting! I LOOOOVE Orange Juice. i really do. When we move and get a big arse freezer and have more space we are going to do more shopping there. Lots of stuff we could definatly use.
We rented King Kong last night. It was goood. Some really gorry scenes that i opted to hide my eyes from. I'm getting the creepy crawlies just thinking about the massive bugs crawling all over the place. blech! It was a reaaly long movie. Good but when it was done. i was really ready for it to be over.
Today we're meeting Mark's mom and step dad and my dad for brunch. Have our little Fathers Day get together and visit. It will be nice. We have some of the photos from the wedding so we will take those to share. Then we're going up to Grandpa's for the afternoon. It will be great to see him because it's been a while since we have. Hopefully cottager traffic won't be too bad for us.

AngelinLove

06-18-2006, 10:02 AM

I just wanted to say that I really hope that your mom gets well soon and that she gets to come home today!!! Also, I rather look forward to your odd pictures. I can honestly say that I don't see that many odd things going on around here!!!

Jenn060306

06-18-2006, 07:14 PM

Well.... Mom isn't going to be home today. I'm doubting she will be home tommorrow either. They changed her morphene because she ended up being allergic to the first one, then they took her off it yesterday to get her T3's which didn't go so well so now shes on Demerol. She's been eating soup but no solids yet. And they won't let you leave until you're eating. I'm not sure they will get her eating tommorrow. She only eats her soup and not all of it at that. Otherwise she is feeling ok. When i got to see her today she was up and sitting in the chair reading rather then in her bed. She couldn't lay there any longer. She's been up walking the halls and was very happy that they let her have a shower. She's hoping they will take the staples out before she leaves. There are 11. :bbeek: It was really nice to see her. I like just sitting and talking with her.
I had brunch with my dad, Mark, his mom, step-dad and sister today. It was great! We shared the pictures from the disposable camera's and talked about Mark and i moving and getting together over the summer more. it was so relazed and not rushed. And the food was pretty good too!
I am exsited, but nervous about my first day at work tommorrow! I'm worried about not remembering peoples names, or screwing somthing up, and a bit about what to wear. The creative director was wearing jeans the last 2 times i met him. But i don't know that i can or should. ARGH! I want to look nice, but not too dressed up. I think i will end up wearing a navy blue short sleeved dress shirt and white pants. It's really humid out so i am a bit worried about over dressing and getting to feel all sticky and gross. Ah well... Jenn, stop worrying!

AngelinLove

06-18-2006, 08:17 PM

Good luck tommorow on your first day of work!!!!

Jenn060306

06-20-2006, 08:48 PM

well... I LOVE MY JOB!

I've finished my second day and its pretty good. I've got my own desk and computer and super comfy office chair. Everyone is SUPER nice and everything is so realxed. It's great! I'm doing ads and newspaper layouts. Everyone is respondsible for their own paper or two. They haven't assigned me a paper yet. But it sounds like i will be getting the Newmarket paper which is the biggest paper they have at 40 pages. The others range from 18 to 32 pages. Most of the staff have two papers it depends on how long they have been there and their skills i think. I've been working on ads for Ashley and Neil. I did a bunch for Neil today. I think they turned out pretty well. I've got to remind myself of the short cuts and everything plus adjust for the slight differences working on a PC rather then a Mac.
On my lunch break i took some time to wander down main street. It was great. It's got a ton of little shops. There are a bunch of design places like home decor and some a graphic design company along with the paper. There are some really nice looking clothing shops. I can't wait to have a little more money so i can check them out. I saw a beautiful dress that would be awsome to wear to a wedding or somthing. :D I love to shop!

Oh.... update on mom. She is now home and feeling ok. But she's very tired and sore. Lots of meds for her! They let her go home last night. Thankfully! I went after work yesterday to visit her and there was a new guy across the hall from her who kept yelling 'ohhhh' 'ahhhh' 'help me!' It was so weird. He sounded like a talking bird. It kinda creeped me out a bit.

All is going so well. I'm feeling really good about it all. Just need to hear about the town house so we can start making plans!

WhiskeyGirl

06-20-2006, 10:02 PM

Good luck with the town house Jenn! Glad to hear that your mom is home, hope she is tip top soon! Have fun with your new job, glad you enjoy it!! :)

StaceyMc

06-21-2006, 09:37 AM

I'm so glad to hear that your mom is home. Hopefully she'll be feeling 100% soon!!!

I love your odd pictures - esp. the machinery one :D It's cute...lol.

Jenn060306

06-22-2006, 03:46 AM

I think my FIL has gone off his rocker!!!

Mark came home to tell me what our BIL John told him last night.... That Dad quit his job as an account auditer and bought himself a 'chip truck'. Yes.... a Chip Truck.
I just sat there, i had no clue what to say. It was just the most bizzar thing i had ever heard. Apperently there was one in town and it was for sale so he decided he was in a fancial point in his life that he could afford to do such a thing. He lives way out in the middle of nowhere. But in the summer its on a major route to cottage country. So hopefully business will be good for him.
I had never even heard that he was ever interested in somthing like that. Mark told me one of the things his dad always wanted to do was open a cafe or small dinner. So maybe this is his way of getting into it. Not sure.
I'm still kinda confused about it all.

Work is good. I'm getting more comfortable there and figuring out the design style more. I've been doing alot of ads for my boss, i am hoping soon i will be getting my own to do. We're working on July's paper. So hopefully i will get my own for August.
Apperently they are openning another francise in Whistler B.C. and are thinking that they want to send some of the creative team out to its launch as well as other launches they will be doing in the west. So i could be doing some travelling for work. How cool! I never considered having to travel on business. I am kinda exsited that i might get to do that eventually. The first one is in October. I'm not expecting to be asked to go anywhere until the spring at the earliest. I definatly want to be much more established in my place in the company and know more about my job before i could even think of doing it.

Jenn060306

06-24-2006, 12:46 AM

OMG CAN I SMACK HIM?!?!?!?!?

Maybe it's just because i am so tired, or maybe its because i married an ***. But i am SOOOOOO F'n mad right now! I want to just scream at him. But i can't because he's not here.

I worked all week, and over time too since its that time of the month for the paper. Monday he sat on his arse and played video games and did the stupid **** he likes to do on Mondays. I went to work. I left the house at 820am and didn't get home until 730ish that night. He was playing video games when i came in the door and i barely was acknowledged. He cleaned the bathroom fixtures but not the floor. When you ask someone to clean the bathroom you would expect them to clean all of it right? Or am i just stupid?! He apperently 'forgot' to do the laundry. But he did clean the microwave like i had asked. Pretty much the things that i wrote on the white board in the kitchen got done but nothing eles. No packing, no vacuuming, nothing. F*UCK!
I've only given him one chore that is completely his and he has to do it 2-3 times a week. Not hard. Empty the kitty litter. I REALLY hate doing it. He told me a week ago we needed to buy litter. So we did. But do you think he changed the litter? NO! i didn't even realize it until tonight when i got home at midnight from work and the apartment reeks! Plus.... the cat crapped on the carpet just outside the door of the room where his litter box is. I am soooo frickin livid right now. I just want to cry i am so mad.

Why does he do this to me? Why is he so lazy and is it so hard to get him to lift a finger arround the house?! Why can't he do something when he's home all alone to make my life a little easier?! I'm starting to cry because i feel so ****** right now. It honestly makes me feel like he doesen't care about anyone but himself and what's good for him. I know he works alot during the week. But i'm going to be working just as much if not more at times. I can not live with a man who isn't going to care about anyone but himself. ARGH!

He can't even call my f'n cell phone. Insted he calls home, he calls my moms, he will e-mail me. But will he call my cell phone where i have said he can call me at work. NO! He e-mailed me at 850 tonight telling me to call him at his sisters because he is going to watch the game with the guys when he gets off work. Apperently he is too ashamed to call me infront of the guys?! WTF?! I'm sure Scott and Matt might make some comments on 'Checkin in with the wife, Making sure you can watch the game'. They can be pricks like that. But who gives a rats ***. I last saw or spoke to him on Thursday morning before we left for work. It would be really nice to talk to him because i know i'm not going to get a chance to until after music in the streets is done on Saturday night. Probably 9-10ish.

What did i do wrong? I just want to cry right now. I'm really trying not to. I can't tell if it's just cause i am so tired. Or just because i am so hurt or what. But i want to scream.

Sorry so long and ranting. But i needed to rant. I'm sure i will more in ther morning after i clean the cat box. I am too tired to do it right now.

WhiskeyGirl

06-24-2006, 02:04 AM

Jenn

Sorry to hear that you've had a rough day and evening. Talk with Mark, and tell him exactly what you just wrote. OR if it were me, maybe I'd let him read what you just wrote. Perhaps that will clue him into these things that are upsetting you. It is kinda ridiculous for you to leave and he's playing video games to come home to him playing video games. maybe you need to say no video games after the moment you walk through the door. Matt has been fixated on Kingdom Hearts 2 ever since we bought it, I've been trying to get him to not play 8 hours a day on the weekends when we can spend some time together. Finally I got mad and told him to save the game or I was going ot turn it off at any point I felt necessary. He actually confessed he couldn't turn it off on his own! MEN!! I know!! lol. So I did turn it off for him...lol. If all else fails, hide the video games until he is motivated to do something! Or leave the video games but hide the controllers!! lol. In all seriousness, talk to him, that's the first and biggest step. Good luck Honey! I hope you can get it all figured out soon!! Take care Sweetie!!

LaceyinPgh

06-24-2006, 09:05 AM

First of all, no offense to you but you did just start this job. Mark is used to having you more in the "housewife" mode. It is going to take sometime to break that habit.

You need to sit down and explain what division of labor now means since you are providing half of the family income. If you have to, make a chore chart like he probably had when he was a little kid. (He wants to act like an irresponsible child, than treat him like one.) Exp: On Monday Mark will: empty the litter box, clean and mop the bathroom, and do at least 2 loads of laundry. On Monday Jennifer will: go to work and make dinner.

As for calling, if he won't call in front of his friends, then he obviously he doesn't need to be hanging out with them. If Sean ever didn't call to let me know what was going on because he was afraid his friends would make fun of him, the wrath of Lacey would rain down upon them all. They are adults, they need to act like they are in fact adults. You are his wife now, he has a responsibility to keep you informed in the same manner that you have a responsibilty to keep him informed. I go out with friedns all the time. I always call Sean and let him know that we are going out and about what time to expect me. If I am going to be late, I call and let him know that too. (Go easy on the email though, Sean and I email all day. It is less intrusive than the phone always ringing.)

Now back to my he is an adult comment. I am taking out my hatred of video games on Mark. So please don't think I am personally attacking him. This is all adult men that I see doing this. A video game is a toy. And mind you, not a terribly useful one in 99.9% of cases. Adult men do not need to be playing with children's toys. I don't care who they are, how stressful their day is, anything. It is a toy. If you came home and Mark had spent all day playing with Lincoln Logs and GI Joe, you would have him committed. A video game is a toy. I find it disgusting when I hear adult women alking or complaining about their husbands spending all day playing video games. They aren't living in mom's basement or the frat house anymore! They are adult men with homes and families. They need to go out and find some mature ways to spend their time. They don't need to be playing with children's toys. They need to grow up a little bit. If I came home after working all day and found Sean in front of the tv playing a video game after he had sat there all day and done really nothing around the house including cleaning up the cat :censored: outside the litter box there would be hell to pay. First of all my size 8 stilletto would be through the television. Then on Thursday the garbage man would strike gold because there would be a fabulous gaming system and all the fixing sitting on the curb. And if he ever said he couldn't turn it off on his own, he would just have to go and live with his mother because he sure as all hell wouldn't be living here with me. It is a toy. Men and women survived millions of years without them. There is no need to not be able to leave them behind when you graduate high school.

Can you tell that I have no patience for disrespect, laziness, and idle time?

Jenn060306

06-24-2006, 09:43 AM

You know.... i was considering taking the remote controls away for the stupid ps2. i really was. It makes me crazy that he spends the day playing. But i don't mind that he plays on occassion. He will when i am checking my e-mail and on onewed or i've fallen asleep on the sofa or gone to bed but he's not tired. It's just the whole freakin day and not lifting a finger that makes me so mad. I do think adult men who are obbsessed with video games are nuts. Anytime we go into the shop the sales guys always kinda weird me out.

As for chores i have tried making a list of who does what on which day but it didn't work. Mark fully addmitted that he didn't want to do it because that's the way his mother did it. So we tried the whole every saturday or sunday we would spend an hour or two and both work out tails off to get everything cleaned and done. But then it doesen't work because we can be so busy on the weekends. All i can think of now is making him a strict list every monday of things to do. And if they're not done when i get home there will definatly be hell to pay.

Tonight when he gets home we are definatly going to be having a little chat about all this ****. I understand that he might be accustom to a house wife. But when i was in school i definatly didn't have time to do all the work. I had 15 hours of class then another 30-40 hours of homework every week. I worked as much as he did, just from home more then him.

WhiskeyGirl

06-24-2006, 01:51 PM

Jenn060306

06-24-2006, 03:01 PM

Thanks Shawna.
I am going to take some time and write up a list this afternoon before i go down to see his band play. That way its all done when we get home and have a chance to talk about everything that has happened.
The game i like to play is Mario Kart. It's good cause we can play it together. But i haven't played it in a couple months. I just haven't had the time or desire to. I don't object to him playing. But i won't let it interefear with our relationship.

So i did a bunch of work arround the apartment. I cleaned the cat litter which i'm sure hasn't been clean in 2 weeks or more. It was discusting. Mark said he needed me to help with dumping all the litter out and putting new stuff in. I'm not sure why though. It's not difficult for me to do on my own. It's just heavy and the dust makes me cough really badly. It feels like my chest gets tight and its hard to breath. I emptied the dishwasher and put all the dishes that had accumulated in the sink away washed the dishes that didn't get washed properly earlier this week. Getting icing off the ziplock container isn't THAT difficult! Anyways.... i tried to vacuum but it crapped out on me so now only half the living room is vaccummed. I took out the trash, cleaned the kitchen. It looks pretty good in here.
It will be interesting to hear what he's got to say about what's gone on while he's been away.

WhiskeyGirl

06-24-2006, 06:39 PM

Hey no problem Jenn! You have helped me out on more then a few occasions, and I am more then pleased to give a little advice when I can...though mostly it's just not the best advice, lol. Good luck!! :)

MOB Karen

06-24-2006, 07:37 PM

Lol...well I have to pipe in about the video games. I am a video gamer!! lol. I love my video games and they help me to relieve stress. I like to play them and I enjoy it. However with that being said, Matt is not nearly as bad as sitting all day infront of the game, this is the first game he has ever played that he has become SO attached to! lol I find nothing wrong with playing video games, I know a lot of people who are well in their late twenties and early thirties who play video games. That does not make them any less of a person. However, when they begin to interfere with your day to day life and if you have children and they are being neglected then they have to go!! Everyone has something that they like to do that other's may find boring, childish, a waste of time. We just have to some times set out guide lines and rules for ourselves and others. Just remember Jenn that we are still young, and we may enjoy playing video games, we may as well enjoy some of it while we can, but when it begins to interfere with life, we must step in.

I think making a list for the first little while would be a good thing. maybe he'll get annoyed with it and do his chores without being told!! Good luck!! :)

Ok, I have to admit I like playing video games too, and I'm a 50-year-old woman. You don't see that often, do you? Of course, I never would have gotten into it without the encouragement from my son, who is a 27-year-old male. He would buy them for me and play with me until he got me hooked and then leave me to it. He loved the fact that his Mother played video games! LOL! But I only like the RPG's (role playing games), the other kinds of games bore me to tell you the truth.

But I absolutely LOVE all of the Zeldas and all the Final Fantasys. Amber could not understand it and she never could get into playing video games. And I have to admit that on the weekends, I would start playing first thing when I woke up and not stop until late in the night. They are fricking addicting and I just couldn't stop!! But I only neglected my dogs, my cat, and my housework. Ok, I'm not in denial and I admit that I have a serious problem with it. But it is so much fun!! Please don't hate me Jenn and Lacey!!!

AngelinLove

06-24-2006, 07:40 PM

Karen...lol...I don't think that you could do anything at this point to cause any of these ladies here to hate you!!!

WhiskeyGirl

06-24-2006, 08:16 PM

Karen,

You and my mom have something in common. My mom also plays video games though not as much as she did when we were children!! lol. My mom was a tetris freak!! lol and she also like the super nintendo games. But since neither my brother or myself are home much, I think the last time she played was years ago. However I've seen my ancient old gameboy lying around their house...she might still be playing! Video games keep your reflexes up and if it weren't for video games my little cousin would have been very badly burned when he fell into a fire pit. My SIL plays video games as well, and we attribute her fast reaction time to the video games! lol. Ok maybe that's not entirely why but hey, video games aren't all bad!! I think it's cool that you play vids!! :)

MOB Karen

06-24-2006, 08:20 PM

MOB Karen

06-24-2006, 08:25 PM

Karen...lol...I don't think that you could do anything at this point to cause any of these ladies here to hate you!!!

Thank you so much for saying so, Angel, that is so nice of you!!!

Jenn060306

06-24-2006, 10:42 PM

I don't dislike anyone for playing video games. like i said, i like Mario KArt. It just fustrates me when they interfear with real life. Thats all.

So Mar and i had a chat. I cried. I was so upset when i saw him at the show. I felt like **** because i was so upset i had to tell him what was wrong because he was confused. I wanted to wait until after but i couldn't. He agreed to the list of chores he has to do every monday. Change bedding wash it, wash all the towels, take out recycling, all the trash cans, and clean the kitty litter. Not to difficult. We also talked about him calling. Apperently he tried but there was no service at the time to my phone. So.... yeah. We're good. But i told him if he didn't do his stuff there would be hell to pay. And i also mentioned to him that playing games all day wasn't fair and that he can turn them off when i get home. Hopefully this is the last of it.

MOB Karen

06-24-2006, 10:44 PM

I think that's a great start to get things back on track! Good luck, Jenn!!

Jenn060306

06-25-2006, 09:56 PM

I think that's a great start to get things back on track! Good luck, Jenn!!

Thanks Karen.

WhiskeyGirl

06-25-2006, 09:59 PM

I agree. THe only way to fix things is to get them out in the open and talk about them! I'm glad things are going to clear up for you Jenn!! :)

Jenn060306

06-25-2006, 10:05 PM

So today at Brunch everyone had a big ice cream cake for my birthday and Bernadettes birthday. It was nice. I really wasn't expecting it. It's kinda neat that my husbands brother in law/ bosses family treats him and i as if we are apart of their family too. :) warm fuzzies!

Tonight i listened to the messages on our answering machine. I didn't bother when we got home at 1030ish last night because i wasn't going to be calling anyone back then. Then i forgot when i was home earlier. But my boss called asking if i was going to be coming in at all over the weekend. He mentioned that the last weekend of the month would usually be busy with work and that he's sorry he forgot to mention it earlier this week. I'm kinda worried now. I hate that i didn't get the message because i could have gone in on Saturday if i had known i was needed there. I just don't want them to be mad at me. I hope it doesen't effect things. I'm just fustrated and worried. I kinda really don't want to work too late on Monday because Mark is home that night. So.... yeah. my mom might be anoyed if i have to work late on Wednesday too. I know she'd really like to see me. I'll probaly just take an earlier dinner so i can stop by. Who knows. But right now i am just worried about Neil being pissed off with me in the morning.
But.... he can't be too mad because it's only the beginning of my second week, he didn't tell me.... but i spose i should have asked. But on the other hand.... i did give him my cell phone number and he didn't call it. So.... yeah. Either that or i had no signal. That's possible. Anyways.... it doesn't matter. I'll figure it all out tommorrow morning. And work my tail off all week to make up for it. or atleast try.

Jenn060306

06-27-2006, 05:57 AM

Ugh..... its nearly 6am here and i have been up since about 430am. You would think after being at work yesterday for 13.5 hrs i would be exhausted and sound asleep. But nope. course not. frickin can't sleep ****. I am so sick of taking the meds my Dr. gave me before the wedding to help me sleep. They make my mouth taste metalicish and drinking water is absolutely discusting. But you just can't not drink water. UGH!

I'm wondering what;s going on with myself lately. I've been having really bad stomic aches for over a week now. Like i can feel it turning and i will get pain from just below my ribs to a couple inches below my belly button. Occassionally i feel really nautious with it too. I've also been having sudden hunger pain that are horribly bad and getting the shakes. On sunday i think i would have been in tears if i hadn't gotten a snack before we went for bunch after mass. It's so weird because i had breakfast at 8am and by 11am i was starving. When we were at Mark's bosses house hanging out before lunch my hands where shaking almost uncontrolably.
I'm a bit freaked because i am starting to think that i am developing diabetes. But i'm not sure. My mother has it, so did her parents. I should really get myself checked out and do all the blood tests and gloucous tests. I think i will make an appointment to see my Dr. in early july if i am still having these problems. My other thought is i am not geting enough iron. I have a really hard time getting enough meat in my diet. Because i am on my own for meals so much i usually have something like cereal or crackers and cheese for dinner. I know i should eat more meat. It just seems like such an ordeal to actually prepare a 'proper' meal for myself. I feel like i am so lazy. But i can't figure out why its such a challenge.
I think i will get my mom to do a blood sugar test on me tommorrow to see if i am about normal or i'm out of whack. Might light a fire under me to get it looked at sooner.

Jenn060306

06-29-2006, 12:46 AM

MORE PICTURES!

My mom's bestfriend dropped by today to visit her and brought a CD of photo's from the wedding shower she hosted for me and our wedding....

YAY!

The shower

My mom pinning me
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Wedding%20Photos/DSCF1125.jpg

Her and i, check out the spread! Awsome food!
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Wedding%20Photos/DSCF1150.jpg

The cake and i. It was awsome cake. Costco! If i knew it was that good i might have just got costco cake for the wedding
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Wedding%20Photos/DSCF1161.jpg

WhiskeyGirl

06-29-2006, 12:48 AM

Awww Jenn!! You and your mom look so cute!! I can see the resemblance between the two of you. You are both very pretty women!! So cute!! Thanks for sharing more pictures..I love pictures!! :)

Jenn060306

06-29-2006, 12:52 AM

Sorry they are so big.....

This is the quilt my mom made us..... i Loooooove it! She is so talented!
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Wedding%20Photos/DSCF1140.jpg

Wedding Photo's

Dad and i walking down the isle
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Wedding%20Photos/DSCF1189.jpg

This is my fave. Mark and i leaving. Check out the expression on his face!
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Wedding%20Photos/DSCF1190-1.jpg
Either one of two thoughts running through his mind....
1) 'Phew! Thank God it's over
2) 'What did i just do?'

Jenn060306

06-29-2006, 12:53 AM

lastly.... dad and i dancing. I like this one alot too. I think i am going to frame it for him for his birthday.

http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Wedding%20Photos/DSCF1196.jpg

Jenn060306

06-29-2006, 12:58 AM

Awww Jenn!! You and your mom look so cute!! I can see the resemblance between the two of you. You are both very pretty women!! So cute!! Thanks for sharing more pictures..I love pictures!! :)

Thanks.
Everyone tells me how much her and i look a like. I don't see it all the time but these pictures i can see it. But i look alot like my dad too.... lol.

Hopefully i will get my professional photos back soon so i can load those up.

bnd94

06-29-2006, 07:38 AM

Mmmmm that cake looks yummy. I love Costco cake too!! :eat:

That is a beautiful quilt.

WhiskeyGirl

06-29-2006, 02:37 PM

Thanks.
Everyone tells me how much her and i look a like. I don't see it all the time but these pictures i can see it. But i look alot like my dad too.... lol.

Hopefully i will get my professional photos back soon so i can load those up.

I was just going to mention how much you also look like your dad! Thanks for sharing more photos!! :)

cowboysbride

06-29-2006, 03:08 PM

Oh how pretty you two are, and Dad is very handsome...now we can see how you got so pretty!

I loved your cake, that food looked awesome! I love the quilt, I have several heirloom quilts. Your mom is VERY talented!

I love your dress, it looks very much like my niece's who's it by???

AngelinLove

06-29-2006, 07:44 PM

The pics are really nice!!! That is a funny pic of you and Mark leaving..lol...and the expression is priceless!!! I really like the picture of you and your dad dancing...it's really nice!!!

Jenn060306

06-29-2006, 10:30 PM

Jenn060306

06-29-2006, 10:30 PM

The pics are really nice!!! That is a funny pic of you and Mark leaving..lol...and the expression is priceless!!! I really like the picture of you and your dad dancing...it's really nice!!!

Thanks Angel.
I love the look on Mar's face. So funny! lol!

Jenn060306

06-29-2006, 10:34 PM

OMG I feel totally burnt out. It's craziness! I'm waitin for Mar to get home so i can go to bed. Cause i know as soon as i lay down i will be out. It's so weird. I was fine yesterday. But today i'm off in la-la-land.
I'm feeling kinda bummed out too. I caught a glimps of myself in the mirror and just thought i look like ****. cause it's been so warm my hair has been a complete mess. The humidity just makes it wild with whispies. And my clothes looked really big on me even though they so arn't. I'm just feeling really down on myself. I want to loose weight but i haven't had time to even think about how yet.

WhiskeyGirl

06-29-2006, 10:50 PM

MOB Karen

06-30-2006, 08:18 AM

I love the pictures, Jenn! I think you and your Mom look so much alike! I love the picture of you and Mark after you got married and walking back down the aisle! That's a great one!!

hummingbird521

06-30-2006, 09:21 AM

You and your mom could pass for twins. The pics are great and the cake looks really good. i haven't had breakfast yet and now i am thinking cake. thanks for sharing.

countrygirl

06-30-2006, 10:06 AM

Jenn, you look beautiful!! Congrats to you and Mark.

Jenn060306

07-02-2006, 10:55 PM

Well... It's been a very nice and realxing last couple of days. The paper went to print on Wednesday so work was alot calmer. We had a big staff meeting to discuss how things were running because we are having to work so many over time hours and the franchises are sending in their events way late making things more difficult. Anyways.... work is work. I've started on the August paper for Newmarket, and i may be getting the Ajax paper as well. That's fun!

Mar and i went up to the cottage this weekend. He was able to leave work early on Friday so we were able to be on the road by 8pm. It was nice. It's so calm and beautiful up there. We spent the weekend with his mom and stepdad. Friday night we talked until midnight or so. Saturday we hung out on the deck watching the water and reading books. I'm working on the 'The Devil wears Prada' it's fantastic! Once i've finished reading it i want to see the movie. We went for a walk. I took my camera to take some pictures for inspiration in painting. I think this week i am going to work on one. I;ve got Wednesday and Friday off.
Friday night i woke up from a dream screaming. Actually screaming. Scared Mark half to death. His mom heard me too. It was so weird. I remember waking up. But i don't remember what caused me to scream. Bad dream i guess.
I got some really bad mosquito bites went we went for our walk. It's gross how badly they swell up. I'm pretty **** sweet eh?! Then today i got sunburnt. Thank fully it's not toooo bad. Maybe tommorrow i will be feeling it. But who knows. I'm trying to keep up on putting aloe and after sun cream on my shoulders.

Tommorrow we are heading down to my parents house to visit and go for dinner to celebrate my mom and my birthday's. We're going for dinner at Moxies. A super sweet kinda swanky restraunt in Newmarket. The design is beautiful! It's got really dark wood and dim lighting and awsome architectural features. Round booths too! I am super exsited about the food too! They had some really neat dishes. Mmmmmm food!

WhiskeyGirl

07-02-2006, 11:10 PM

Mmmmm I love Moxies!! Have you had the White chocolate brownie?? It's so yummy!! Have fun. :)

Jenn060306

07-02-2006, 11:16 PM

Mmmmm I love Moxies!! Have you had the White chocolate brownie?? It's so yummy!! Have fun. :)

Mmmm no i haven't. Sounds fantastic!
We used to go to Moxies alot out west. This is the first one i have ever seen in Ontario. Can't wait!

WhiskeyGirl

07-02-2006, 11:18 PM

Mmmm no i haven't. Sounds fantastic!
We used to go to Moxies alot out west. This is the first one i have ever seen in Ontario. Can't wait!

I also really like one of their salads but for the life of me I can't think of what it's called. It comes with Banana bread. It is so tastey!! :)

Jenn060306

07-05-2006, 02:43 PM

Welll it's been really quiet lately. Nothing happening arround here. Work was horribly boring yesterday. Apperently the beginning of the month is always really quiet and there isn't much to do. Thankfully i have some time off.
Today i was off so i took my mom out, she wanted to go to the mall. So we did some slow shopping with lots of rest breaks. I got a new pair of brown capri pants and 2 tank tops a dark plum and a teal. They had lots of stuff on sale.

This afternoon Mark wanted me to find out more information on whats happening with the Townhouse. I called and left a message. The girl who is supposed to be doing our interview was asking about meeting with us this past weekend but we never heard from her. But apperently she began having trouble with her pregnancy last week. HEr blood pressure has been really high and then dropping really low so she had to go to the hospital. I'm guessing she will be staying there until the baby is born. I think she's about 35 weeks.
So i thought i would look into some apartments in downtown Newmarket. There were a fair number on Main Street which is the street i work on.
But i'm feeling a bit like maybe we should just move in with my parents until i am done my 3 month probation at work and we can get a morgage and buy a house rather then doing all this renting ****. We should be able to do that in September. Maybe be in a house by Christmas or shortly there after. I dunno.... We need to make some decisions soon.

Jenn060306

07-05-2006, 08:39 PM

I'm starting to get really bummed out about this whole moving thing. We have no where to go yet. We have to be out by the 31st of July. We still haven't heard anything about the townhouse.
I called arround for a bunch of ads in the paper. I went to see a 3rd floor walk up down the street from where i work. It was really nice. wood flooring, massive trim, a faux fireplace, The bathroom has been all redone and the kitchen is up to date. It's a bit smaller then were we are now. But not too much. We would need a smaller kitchen table (if we even had one) and we'd need to get a wardrobe for extra storage. Plus the walk up would make it a pain in the arse to move in and out. Plus grocceries.... so.... But.... i can walk to and from work. And its in a pretty up and coming trendy area.
The second place i saw was closer to Mark's work. It was kinda hole. It was crappy. The walls weren't finished properly. You could see the edge of the drywall . The corner stripping. The door to the master bedroom was a glass sliding door.... The backyard was stunning! I loved it!

I'm just getting really depressed about it all. I don't know what's happening. I don't know where we are going to be living in a couple weeks.

WhiskeyGirl

07-05-2006, 09:02 PM

Jenn060306

07-07-2006, 04:07 AM

Jenn

I am sure everything will work out! If you want you can move to GP and buy our house! lol. Ok, probably not what you had in mind I am sure!! It will fall into place I am sure Honey! Keep your chin up.

Thanks Shawna.... I want to buy a house. We have the money. I just haven't been working long enough and a mortage on Mark's income alone wouldn't be enough to get anything worth while.

WhiskeyGirl

07-07-2006, 12:44 PM

Thanks Shawna.... I want to buy a house. We have the money. I just haven't been working long enough and a mortage on Mark's income alone wouldn't be enough to get anything worth while.

Hang in there!! The right thing will come along for you and you'll know it because it will be perfect, you'll love it, you'll see potential and the money will be right! Hang in there! And hey living with your parents for a while, there is no shame in that, my brother and his wife lived with my folks for a while when they needed to save some $! Soon enough Darlin', soon enough!! :)

Jenn060306

07-08-2006, 01:44 AM

So.... a really great friend of our's dad has Lung Cancer. No big surprise considering he smoked like a frickin chimney. He found out last Christmas. He's been in and out of the hospital a number of times in the last 6 1/2 months. He's had phnomia, passed out in public which sent him to the e.r. he broke the ball of his femur in the hip socket walking up the drive way one day. It was apperently all taken over by the cancer. So he had hip replacement surgery this spring.
He is getting married in a week. July 15th. I'm a bit worried that he won't make it to the wedding. I think Jacki is too. She is totally depressed about it all. And on top of it her dad is putting pressure on her because he's told her that he wants to see her graduate and his first grandchild before he dies. She's not sure that she will be able to complete all her courses before next June. And it is definatly in the cards for her or her brother to have children in the next year. From what she's told me they've basically given him a year to live. None of the treatments they have given him have been able to kill all the cancer. It's spread to much through his body.
I feel so terrible for them. I know her dad really well. Mark has known him since he was a little boy. There isn't anything i can do or say that will make it better for Jacki. I wish i could. I think next week i am going to take her out for dinner. Get her mind off everything that is going on and remind her that we love her and we are totally there for her.

WhiskeyGirl

07-08-2006, 02:01 AM

Jenn060306

07-10-2006, 11:38 PM

This is so bizzar. I feel like i have been terribly busy lately. But i don't really have anything to show for these feelings.

I had last Friday off so i spent a good chunk of my day packing and trying to get organized for moving. Unfortunetly Mark and i still have no word ono where we are going. Still hoping to get into the town house. Tommorrow i'm hoping to get some information out of Mark's sister about what's happening or at least get her to tell us that we won't be getting in. We have to be out of our Condo in 20 days. I'm totally stressing and Mark is just getting Angry.

Saturday was a bit of a waste. I really wasn't feeling well so i didn't get much done. When Mark got home from work we rented some movies and just hung out. It was nice cause it feels like we hardly see eachother anymore.

Sunday was just stupid. We got a flat tire before we left for Mass, Mark had changed it once before. But the mechanics had put the bolts on so tight there was no way he could have gotten them off with the stupid little tool they give you with the car. We had to call hyundai roadside assistance. The guy who came out was super nice and found the screw that was in the tire. He was able to fill it with air again which would last long enough for us to take it to be fixed. They planned on patching the whole for it. But since it was barely an inch away from the last plug and patch they put in we had to get a brand new tire. Cha-Ching!

We decided since it was just after 10am once the tire was replaced we'd go for breakfast at Golden Griddle. I know it's not the best place. But they do have a decent breakfast. It was busy. But not so busy that we had to wait for a table. We were seated with menu's and then waited about 15 minutes before we saw another family come and be seated next to us. Mark said "If they get served first i want to leave" I agreed with him because it was rediculous. It wasn't like we were off in a corner. The servers had to come past our table to go to the kitchen. The waitress served the family and we got up and left. I was really annoyed. I was looking forward to pancakes. And i just can't make them the same at home. We gave up and got our shopping done and had lunch at home instead.

Last night my stomic started acting up on me again. I hadn't eaten anything out of the ordinary. And i haven't had any milk. Even as i write this i'm having pain under my last ribs and just to the right of my pelvic bone on my left side. I've been trying to find out what it could possibly be online which is really only scaring me more. In the morning i am going to make an appointment to see my family doctor. If the pain keeps up at the end of the month i know i will be in trouble. With having to work 60+ hours.... i can't afford to be doubled over in pain or feeling rather nautious.

Mark and i are talking about taking a long weekend and going either to Niagra Falls and getting a nice hotel that over looks the falls and doing all the touristy things. Or going to Toronto and seeing an Argo's game and spending a night or two there. Maybe going to the museum and doing some shopping. Park our car in underground parking and just walking everywehere and taking the subway. Haven't completely decided yet. It all depends on when i can garentee not having to work that weekend, price, and what events are happening at that time. I think early September will be the best time for us to go away since in the beginning of August we will either be moving into a new apartment or one of our parents. Oh Joy!

Jenn060306

07-12-2006, 06:05 AM

OMG! Yesterday we got a call from a place we were interested in checking out for an apartment in Newmarket. This place sounded really neat but maybe a little to pricey. The lady renting it said she had 2 people coming to look at it so she was pretty sure it was going to be taken. But she called me yesterday morning and we get to go see it on Thursday! HURRRAY!

Now.... the super exsiting part is all the things that this place includes. It's a Loft in a building that is condo's. So its all owned with a few renters. It's 742sq ft bachelor. Has 6 appliances, fridge, stove, dishwasher, microwave hood vent combo and washer and dryer. loooove the washer and dryer! Large kitchen with granite counter, radiant heating in the floor, large bathroom with good size counter top and soaker tub with the jets! There are massive windows. (It was an old factory in the early 1900's) With renting the space we would get 2 parking spots. One underground and one above ground, use of the gym, there is a theatre with surround sound that we can book, multi-purpose rooms, games room, and a banquet room with a kitchen that we can also book. There is a massive patio that is shared by all the tenants since there is no balconies and 2 proffessional BBQ's shared by everyone as well.
It's about a 5 minute walk from where i work which is great. And on Main Street there is lots of little shops to do all your shopping at. We can walk to the Clean Food connection in probably 2-3min. YAY! Plus every saturday all through the summer and into the fall there is a farmers market across the road every saturday morning. There is lots of parks and it's really pretty in the area.
I am super exsited about going to actually see the space! I figured that 742 sqft is a decent size. roughly 25ft x 30ft. For just the two of us that's not bad. And if it would be a little small with a kitchen table there is a bar at the kitchen counter so we could get bar stools and store the kitchen table in the locker and bring it out when we are going to have company. We'd need to be a bit creative in diving the space for our bedroom from the rest of the place but curtains work nicely.
So thats my good news!

The kinda crummy news is we still haven't heard back from the Town House. I really feel like saying forget it anyways. There are too many politics and just nasty people on that street. I think i would be annoyed by it all. There is one woman who has been supposed to be calling us since the beginning of July. It kinda feels like they just don't like us and are trying to find ways to get arround letting us in. The bi-laws say we don't have to have kids but there are other bi-laws that say we have to have a family in order to live there. WTF! I'm going to be homeless in less then 3 weeks. Do ya think it might be better to ask for forgiveness rather then ask to start?!?!

I'm so fustrated by this whole thing. I'd like to just say forget about it all. This loft sounds so appealing. Mark and i agreed that if its going to be enough space for us that it probably would be a much nicer place to live for an entire year then trying to fiind somthing for 6 months so we can buy a house. I think we'll look into buying a house in the spring and try to get possession of it early to mid July so we can do any painting we'd want and a gradual move rather then an over night move like we are going to mostlikely do at the end of this month. Hopefully this loft will be enough space and be really nice and work out for us cause i'm tired of not knowing what's happening!

Jenn060306

07-12-2006, 01:22 PM

I had a visit with my doctor this morning.... she's not sure what's going on either. Maybe gallstones/gallblatter problems, maybe somthing with my left ovarie. No clue. She's got me started on a number of different tests, blood tests, ultrasounds, ugh!
I did the blood test after i saw her and it was terible! I have small not so nice veins to start. I always tell them as soon as i sit down. The nurse was really good and looked long and hard on both arms. She started with one on the left inside my elbow. It started out ok. But then it hurt like :censored: My eyes welled up it was terrible. She got it out really quck. She was really worried about me. So she tired my right arm and found a good one just below my elbow between the inside and the actual bone. It was ok... but i wasn't 'bleeding very well' as she put it. I was trying so hard to relax. But not pass out. 4 frickin massive viles. No fun! As soon as she checked it after she was finished it started to swell and turn blueish purple. It's going to be a beautiful lookin bruise. Joy!
The dr. gave me some prescriptions to help with the pain and any possible acid reflux i may be having. I now belive i will rattle when i walk. To many pills.
I will have to go back for the beginning of Aug to get the results and find out what's next. I'm concerned about what it will say. I'm very worried about having a problem with an ovrie. But considering everything seems fine otherwsie. Not a horrible amount of cramps etc. So i can't imagine that that is a big prob.
Oh well.... one day at a time!

ikkin510

07-12-2006, 02:54 PM

Jenn060306

07-12-2006, 04:41 PM

Jenn, I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Hopefully the dr can figure out what is wrong with ya and causing the pains. Lets hope its an easy fix too! The new house option sounds exciting. Sorry to hear about all the stuff not working out right with the townhouse. I would offer to let you guys stay here, but that would be quite the drive to work each day for ya!!

Aww thank you Nikki. You are such a sweetheart!
I'm really hoping everything gets better for the pain and we can fix it quickly.
The townhouse is so infurriating. I am praying that the loft will be exactly what we need.
Driving from there would definatly be alot of rush hour traffic! It would make my nearly 2hr commute each way now look like nothing. lol! Thank you for the offer :)

Jenn060306

07-13-2006, 10:10 PM

THE LOFT WAS AMAAAAZING!

It's soooo beautiful. Uber Sheek. AH! I love it! Cherry cabinets, black granite counters, black appliances, shelf cleaning oven. TONS of storage! gorgeous tiled floors, massive windows. Oh i am getting chills! lol! The closets are mirrored doors so they will relfect all the light and might it very bright. Also it's at the end of the hall so its quiet, i would only share one wall with other people.
We have to fill out applications when Mark and i go back so he can see it. Credit checks and everything. Sucky. But i totally understand. I'm a bit worried cause Mar did have credit card trouble when he was younger and it is still on his credit report and a bad mark. So i'm worried about that. He has a letter from the credit company saying that it's all been taken care of and its good. But i still worry. I think i am going to get a letter from work saying how much i make etc. Also because technically my mom is my current landlord. She owns my Condo and we pay her rent. I'm thinking i will ask the building super's if i can use them as a reference. I loooove this place. I want it SOOOOO badly now! It's got a gym in it! And a killer patio so i can go out and chill when it's nice. Not like where we are now. unless you have a balcony..... you're house bound.

WhiskeyGirl

07-14-2006, 01:58 AM

Good luck with everything Jenn!! I hope it all works out for the best for you!! Take care!! :)

StaceyMc

07-14-2006, 09:48 AM

Sounds like a great place Jenn! Good luck. As for Mark's credit "oops", I've learned, through my clients, that if they talk to their potential landlords before they do the credit check and let them know that there was a problem, but it has been taken care of, the landlord appreciates that. They'd rather know up front than be surprised, I guess.

LaceyinPgh

07-14-2006, 10:16 AM

A little credit card oops isn't going to mess you up. They are looking to make sure you haven't skipped out on major debts or that you aren't so far in debt that you aren't going to be able to make your rent payments. Just be honest.

The loft sounds great. Good luck on it.

AngelinLove

07-14-2006, 10:36 AM

Good Luck with the Loft!!!

Jenn060306

07-15-2006, 06:09 AM

Thanks everyone. It looks like we are going to be able to get the Townhouse now afterall. To much drama surrounding it. We are going to go back and do all the paper work to apply for the loft anyways. We are going to weigh our options and try to figure out what makes the most sence for us to do.
I love the loft and its really nice and there are some amazing extras with it. But the town house is bigger and less expensive. Being in the loft gives us a bit more 'our space' then the town house because we have friends who like to drop in who live on the street. So on and so forth. So we need to make some decisions this week. I love my friends. But i do worry about them just dropping in all the time.

Other big news. My SiL is pregnant with baby number 4! she's 6 weeks along. Very cool! Her and i are both confused to how that works because just before the wedding she thought she was pregnant but then thought she had a miscarriage just after our wedding. She had some tests done at the dr's and he said everything was fine and she was back to 'normal' which we both took as her not being pregnant when she told me what he had said. But apperently she was, and managed to carry it through a belived miscarriage. At her next visit she's going to try to get more info from her dr. as to how this happend.
I was super happy to find out. I think i'm ready to start trying to have a baby soon. I felt a little sad because i wanted to be there too. We're thinking January we're going to start trying. It's just fustrating to have so many people asking me when we're going to have a baby or telling me it's my turn. I think they fail to realize that i am still very young. I just finished school and started a great job. I wouldn't want to actually have a baby until after i've been at my job for a year.
Ah well.... lets worry about moving and finding out what's causeing this stomic pain. Cause that might completely change our January plans.

AngelinLove

07-15-2006, 09:20 AM

Good luck with everything Jenn...especially finding out about your stomach pain!!

WhiskeyGirl

07-15-2006, 02:06 PM

It's funny how once you say I do everyone thinks it's time to start trying for a baby! I really don't understand the way other people's minds think. I know Matt's parents and mine have both been asked when we will have our first. Luckily our family just says When they are ready!

I also just wanted to share a story with you. When my grandmother was about 24 or so the doctors removed her right ovary because it was full of cysts. She then went on to have 8 pregnancies, 7 resulting in live births and one resulting in a miscarriage! There is always hope Jenn, if there is something wrong with your ovary and there a lot of treatment options to get you pregnant if it's not happening on your own! Remember to keep the faith Hun!! Keep us updated and take care. :)

ikkin510

07-15-2006, 02:42 PM

Jenn, that loft apartment sounds beautiful. Good luck deciding between the two. You'll have to keep us updated.
I hope everyhing work out with your drs appointment. I'll continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Congratulations to you SIL! That's exciting that she didn't lose the baby.

LaceyinPgh

07-15-2006, 03:07 PM

Jen, I just read on another thread where it said that greasy or fatty foods upset your stomach. If that is the case, it very well could be a gall bladder problem. Those are pretty easily fixed with no long term problems. Plus, didn't your mom just have something wrong with her gall bladder too?

Jenn060306

07-15-2006, 11:04 PM

Thanks for all your kinda words.

It makes me a little crazy having all these people ask me when we are having kids. I think everyone is super exsited about the idea of it. Not sure why. Oh well....
My Dr. was thinking either somthing with my ovarie or with my gallblatter. Not sure so the tests should give us more results. I don't know if it really is what i am eating that makes me not feel well. I had a garden salad for dinner tonight and i'm not feeling well now. I will keep updating as to what is happening. I won't have any info until the end of the month at the earliest when i go have the ultrasound. But even at that i don't expect them to be able to tell me much unless there is somthing they can show me.
My mom did just have her gallblater removed last month. If that's what's causing me trouble that's just messed up.

We have an interview next Saturday for the townhouse. We should find out soon after that if we get it. I think we'll move there if we do because its a little more feasable then a bachelor loft. So we'll see what happends.

Tommorrow is packin day for me. I'm going to take all the clothes out of our closets and drawers and make Mark and i sort them all and only keep what we want. Dontate what we don't. And pack what we won't wear until the fall. I'm also going to start packing up alot of the kitchen stuff. We won't be home alot before we move now that its the 15th and i'm going to be working major over time. There is not much point for us to commute the 3hrs every day when we can stay at a parents house.

Again... Thanks for everyones support. It's kinda un-nerving not knowing what's going on with your body. It's great to have people who know what to say to make you feel a bit better.

WhiskeyGirl

07-16-2006, 03:54 AM

Again... Thanks for everyones support. It's kinda un-nerving not knowing what's going on with your body. It's great to have people who know what to say to make you feel a bit better.

I hear ya Jenn!! Please keep us updated, I am praying that everything will be alright for you!! :)

Jenn060306

07-16-2006, 11:14 PM

So between naps i was able to go through all my clothes and pull out all the things i don't wear anymore and don't think i will wear in the winter again. I came up with a green garbage bag of them. It was pretty good. So everything is now neatly folded and hung again too! Mark is going to go through his this week while he is on holidays then take everything to the salvation army.
Hopefully tommorrow night i will have the energy to pack up stuff in the kitchen we won't be using between now and when we move. Plus all the extra stuff under the cabinets in the bathroom. Through out all the empty bottles and stuff that may be jammed under there. I think i am basically going to pack up my bags as if i was going away for two weeks and then pack everything eles to move. I can't belive how much we still have to do here. It's kinda scarey. I'm really glad Mark is on holidays this week. He'll go a good job at packing us up.

Jenn060306

07-18-2006, 08:55 PM

Well... i spent last night in the Emergancy Room. That was just peachy! Last night i started getting wicked stomic pains. I was doubled over on the floor and broke into a cold sweat. I think Mark freaked out cause he called telehealth Ontario immediately. Telehealth is nurses who you can call to get medical advice from rather then going to the hospital. Long story short.... they said to go to the hospital.
There we waited for frickin ever it seemed. Then they tried to take my blood. I'm not a bleeder. Once the girl saw the bruise on my arm from last Wednesday and took a poke arround my arms to see if she could find anything she decided to go with the finger prick method. Well.... She 'milked' my fingers. They were her own little utters. Unfortunetly they cloated to quick and she wasn't able to get enough blood. So another lab tech came to try me again. After poking arround for 15 min she was able to get it from my left arm. She took another vile just incase. Once i actually got into to see someone there was some good concern about the gallblatter and lots of poking at my abdomen. gotta love that. They sent me for an Ultra Sound this morning.... came back ok. But my white blood cell count is way up which indicates that i have an infection of some sort. I was able to go home arround 1130 this morning. But i have to go back at 7am tommorrow for a CT Scan.... they have no clue what's wrong with me.
Mark is doing ok with it all. I dunno if it just hasn't fazed him. Or if he's acting strong for me. Work is freaked. Mark called in for me this morning. They said no worries. I went in this afternoon for a bit because i was feeling ok. They all gave me greif about coming in. But i'm just so worried about my deadlines and also being in my probation still... UGH!
I'm so tired. my stomic hurts. I just want this all to go away. Anyways. I should go call my mom and fill her in on what's going on. Sorry if i'm not arround much for the next while. I'm doing ok. Just trying to figure out what's wrong with me.

AngelinLove

07-18-2006, 09:02 PM

OMG Jenn, I am so sorry that you are going through all this...I really hope that they find out what is going on very soon and fix it. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Mark. I know that you have probably heard this a million times, but try not to worry about work...you have to worry about your health first!!! I truly hope you feel better soon!!!!

LaceyinPgh

07-18-2006, 09:07 PM

Oh my goodness, Jenn! How are you feeling now? Let us know about the CT scan as soon as you can. I'll keep you in my thoughts!:hug:

WhiskeyGirl

07-19-2006, 02:35 AM

OH NO JENN! That is scary! I hope they figure out what is the problem, I'll be thinking (ok worrying) about you! Please try and let us know what;s going on if you can! I hope everything works out for you Honey! Take care!!

Jenn060306

07-19-2006, 07:37 PM

Well.... finally there are some answers!
I had my CT scan this morning. Spent all morning in the hospital. Lots of waiting. grrr.... More blood and an IV. hurray! It's great to need a number of nurses poking arround at your body looking for a vein that will work. ugh!
The scan went well. They injected me with some radioactive **** that heated my stomic and everything up. It was the craziest thing i have ever felt. I thought i was going to be cooked from the inside out. lol!

The good thing about it all is that i got results today rather then waiting. If i had kept on the course i was taking prior to going to the hospital i wouldn't have had the UltraSound which still would have shown nothing. And it would be into August before anything more started happening.
Well... The scan showed an infection. Defiberteculitus(sp?) which the dr. was a little baffled by because he thought i was really young to be having that. I've now got 2 perscriptions so hopefully by the end of the month i am feeling much better. But the scan also showed that i have a number of ovarian cysts. I will have to see my family dr. about what is going to happen with those. I want to do a little research on them. I am not sure if they will cause problems for me further down or not. So i will be having a good chat with my dr. when i see her at the beginning of August.

By the time we got home from the hospital it was 1230 and i still haden't eaten anything so we decided it would be good for me to have some food and taken my perscription because the pharmasist said it can cause drowsiness so i wanted to see what happend before i drove the hour down to work. I was out cold by 130pm. So.... i will have to be carefull about when i take the meds.

In other news.... Mark and i did some good packing tonight. Alot of stuff from the kitchen is now packed. I am going to work on getting rid of the **** we don't need anymore. Donation central! I am going to pick up some more boxes tommorrow. We've run out. Mark's got to look into booking a truck. It looks like there is still soooo much to do. This weekend we are going to be crazy busy.

WhiskeyGirl

07-19-2006, 08:14 PM

Jenn

I'm really happy they gave you some answers!! Don't worry too much about the cysts, they can usually be shrunken down with BCP (birth control pill) and the way medicine is coming along i'm sure there are other things they can do for you! I'm just glad they found out what's wrong. Take care of yourself!!

PS I sent you something from the stampede...nothing big but some info for you to share with Mark!

LaceyinPgh

07-19-2006, 08:20 PM

WhiskeyGirl

07-19-2006, 08:22 PM

Well at least the inflamation isn't THAT big of a deal. It can be stress related too. As for the cysts, Shawna is right, they aren't a huge deal. BCP will work. So don't worry about that. They are actually kind of common.

Yes and as I stated before, my grandmother had her left ovary removed because of cysts and she went on to have 8 pregnancies, 7 resulting in live births and one miscarriage! :)

Jenn060306

07-19-2006, 11:29 PM

I'm not terribly worried about the cysts. BCP won't help i don't think cause i have already been taking it for management for a number of years now. If i have to have them removed i will. I am sure i won't have alot of problems with them. But Mark and i agreed that if there is the possibilty of problems we are going to look into all our options. Having at least one child of our own is extremly important to us.
A friend of ours had to have a number of cysts removed after she had her first child and now she is finally pregnant with #2. The medical world is so great! I'm feeling very positive tonight!

Jenn060306

07-20-2006, 10:56 PM

OMG I am so frickin tired today! I worked all day and everyone was like take it easy get the rest now.... and all day at work i felt totally fine. I get in the car to come home and it hits me like a wall. I am soooooo tired. I manage to eat some dinner. But by the time i finsihed that and cleaned up i was so tired and my back ached so bad i had to lay down. And of course i fell asleep. I woke up at 1015pm. I would have loved to stay in bed and would have gone right back to sleep but i felt like i needed to get up and accomplish somthing.
Mark kinda didn't do as much as i had hoped he would today. So i should throw some stuff in boxes so i can feel a bit better about it. This place is a complete disaster. I'm not sure how we are going to finish it all in time?!

Jenn060306

07-23-2006, 09:24 AM

So i need to have a little vent here. I am so pissed off. So tired. So fustrated. So hurt.

We move in a week today. And we have no where to go. F*ck!!!
Saturday we had our 'interview' for the townhouse. We were told we were in as far as the membership co-ordinator thought. The unit was going to be available for Aug 1. It would have worked for us. We could have got a truck packed up all our **** parked it in my parents drive way over night and moved in on the 1st. no troubles. Well.... in the interview they tell us that the 'agency' i'm not intirely sure what that means but i figure because so many people have been ****ing arround with these applicants someone complained. So they have to do everything by the book now. So the unit won't be available until September 1. So the one we were thinking we'd be getting will now sit vacant for a month and we will be frickin homeless! Logical?! Not really. they've yanked Mar and i arround so much. They 'lost' our money the first time. (Someone stole it i think) Then someone was fighting it and saying that we didn't qualify because we didn't have children. It's just been one thing after another. Now we have no where to go. And at that. We wouldn't even have found out if we were able to move in on sept 1. until agust 14. ARGH! These people are seriously messed!
I can't help but feel like there are enough people who have this preconceived idea of us and don't like us. Or maybe it's they don't like Mark's sister who lives on the street. I don't know. But considering we were told we were in and now we're just getting yanked arround constently. Mark and i are so sick of it, we don't want to live there now even if we did get accepted. they totally are inconsiderate nasty people.
Sorry i am totally scatterbrained right now and i don't know that any of this is making any sence.

Anyways.... There is one other place we are thinking about. It's a bit smaller then were we are now. It's nice though. I can walk to work. Rent is more. But i think it's actually pretty reasonable for the area. It's the second floor of a house in Newmarket. 2 bdrms. small kitchen. But good amount of storage in it. The guy who owns the graphic design company next to SNAP owns the property. He's a good guy. Only thing is. He'd prefer no animals. But isn't legally allowed to say no animals. I feel a bit bad because we do have Dusty and have no plans to get rid of him. But i also know i am totally paranoid about cat smells and know i would clean up any messes and then steam clean the carpet again. Mark saw the apartment yesterday. He likes it. But is worried about the space. I think it would be ok. We'd definatly need to weed out the **** we don't need/want anymore. Which i've been wanting to do for a while now. I'm feeling like we are going to take it. It's available aug 1. but Rob said we could move in before then. It's vacant now. Mark and i will make the decision today i think. I hope. I don't know that i can handle the stress of not knowing any longer. I'm feeling a bit nautious just thinking about being homeless in a week.

AngelinLove

07-23-2006, 10:16 AM

Jenn060306

07-23-2006, 10:37 AM

Good luck getting the "moving" situation resolved Jenn. It is ridiculous that the "agency" and all have put you both through so much over that townhouse. Just look at it this way...atleast theie true inadequecy came out before you signed a lease and moved ina nd started giving them your money...who knows what kinda **** you would have had to deal with while living there!!!!

Thanks Angel. It seems like some of the ladies on the street are really catty. I think us not living there will be better in the long run. But i am just so fustrated by the whole thing. It shouldn't have ever been so complicated.

Jenn060306

07-24-2006, 06:01 AM

:ura1: Coming Soon! :ura1:

Wedding Photo's from the Photographer!!!

Mark and i will hopefully be meeting with our photographer on July 31st to pick up our wedding proofs album and the CD's of wedding photo's. I hope to get some posted soon!
I am soooo exsited! FINALLY! lol!
You know what eles is great! Friends of ours are getting married in January and we told them how great our photographer. They had a consult with her and if they book with her she is going to give us $100 worth of free product for recomending her! RIGHT ON! That would be really great!

Jenn060306

07-27-2006, 09:21 PM

Well Well Well... My papers have gone to proofs so i am finally home on the same day that i leave to go to work on. lol. Yeah. All week i have been at work from 9am-130am at the earliest. Yesteday i was there until 330am. Work Work Work... In the down time we got a little weird. We made paper hats and stuff out of the old papers from last month that we had kickin arround. So weird.

Mark and i were given some bad news last night. A family friend of ours who had lung cancer passed away last night. I'm still completely shocked by it all. I knew it was coming. But only a month ago we found out he was given a year to live. Now he's gone. It's so bizzar. It realy hasn't set in. Most likely won't until he's not there at the next big event. I'm worried about my friend Jack. I don't know how she's taking this all. Hopefully tonight Mark will let me know when the Funeral is so we can make plans for moving and work arround it.

On another, more positive note. Mark and i have a new place to live. YAY! We have the keys are everything. Well.... Mark has the keys. We're moving this weekend. It's one the second floor of a house in Newmarket. It's 2 bedrooms, an office, livingroom, kitchen, and such. It's an older house, so its go awsome hard wood floorings massive molding. I am super excited about it! I will take pictures when i go over tommorrow and post them as soon as i get a chance.

Well.... Thats about it for now.

mariaandmanish

07-30-2006, 11:55 PM

Jen, I am so sorry to hear about your friend. Losing someone is never easy, even when they've been sick for a while. Most of us have been there. You look at it two ways: sad and grieving that they're gone and : grateful that they're no longer suffering. My thoughts are with you and your friends.

As for the house, congratulations! It's really exciting to find a place and really love it. Good luck with the move. I hope it went well for you.

WhiskeyGirl

07-31-2006, 12:04 AM

Jenn

I"m sorry I missed your post about losing your family friend. I'm terriably sorry. Take care!! :)

Jenn060306

08-02-2006, 06:50 PM

Thanks Maria and Shawna. It was tough. It was hard to see all these people who cared so much about him and who he cared so much about. Everyone shed a tear or two. The funeral was really nice. Some great stories and some good laughs were had. I don't think i had ever laughed so much at a funeral before. I'm feeling alot better now about it all. It's funny how we need some sort of closure after we've lost someone we really cared about.

The move went well. We got everything out between thunderstorms. On Saturday i was totally freaked because it was raining so badly all the cars on the highway had pulled over and at one point it started to hail. Thankfully Sunday when we did the majority of the move it was nice. We're all put together. The apartment is a complete disaster. But it's coming together. Slowly. I'm happy that the colours of the stuff we already have match the colours the walls were already painted pretty well.

Now here's the Sh!tty news of the day.
Yesterday i lost my job. Ya. I was let go because they felt that my preformance wasn't satisfactory. Grrrreeeat! So they barely trainned me. Tossed 2 large papers in my lap and then let me go when i have trouble getting it all done in time because of the greif i was given by one paper. They sent in ads after the deadline and one HUGE ad that took a ridiculous amount of time. If i had that at the beginning of the month when i was twiddleing my thumbs that would have been fine. But NO! So i lost alot of time on that which ment i got behind on my other paper. :censored: So.... now i have to find a new job. I am uber pissed about finidng out AFTER we moved to the apartment we did. It was within walking distance of work for me. But now we're no where near Mark's work so i feel alot more restricted in where i can look. I can't get a job in Toronto cause i don't have much of a way to get there. GRREEEAT!

Tonight i am totally feeling like what i thought was 'rock bottom' is just the beginning of it all.

WhiskeyGirl

08-02-2006, 09:51 PM

**** Jenn! That sucks and I'm sorry Hun!! I hope things come together for you! I really am very sorry. Take care and I will keep my fingers and toes crossed for you!! :)

Jenn060306

08-03-2006, 01:17 PM

**** Jenn! That sucks and I'm sorry Hun!! I hope things come together for you! I really am very sorry. Take care and I will keep my fingers and toes crossed for you!! :)

Thanks very much Shawna. I'm trying to keep positive about it all. I'm hoping somthing better will come up. In my spare time from job hunting i am working on getting my wedding invites, announcements, greeting card company going. My mom offered to help me and do all my books and invoicing for my freelance work since i am a bit of a tool when it comes to all that stuff. There is a reason i am an artist.

cowboysbride

08-03-2006, 01:35 PM

I'm so sorry Jen~! I have a nice warm place in my heart for you, know that you are there and in my prayers as well.

AngelinLove

08-03-2006, 01:45 PM

OMG Jenn that really blows...I would be super pi$$ed too!!! You ahev been working very long hours and working your butt off and then they fire you becuase they didn't do their **** jobs right and train you correctly!!! You are in my thoughts and I sure hope that things work out for you soon!!!

Jenn060306

08-04-2006, 07:22 PM

ARRRGH!

Today i want to stomp my feet and have a frickin hissy fit! If i knew my way i would pack up the car and run away to the cottage and say F*ck the world! My MiL and our friend who just lost her husband are there doing the same thing.
Everything was going to frickin good there for a while. I knew it was to good to be true. I am so sick of being beaten on. I just want give up. I am so upset and so tried and so hurt i can barely even cry. Why is it that bad people who don't treat people nicely and do terrible things in the world always have it so friggin easy?! I bust my butt and i feel like i bend over backwards to help people i still get knocked down. Then i get a good swift kick while i am down.

I am so sick of this. I am so lonely and bored and just feel lousey. I'm totally bummed about loosing my job. I actually really liked working there. It's been a total shot to my confidence being told i'm not up to snuff. I am upset about Howard dying. I feel better because i know he's not suffereing anymore. But i just wish i had a chance to see him again. It's been almost a year since i saw him. Seeing the photos from his and Ruth's wedding really hit home for me. He looked so pale and fragile. It was really terrible.
And now Mark is going to be working every Saturday from 9-5pm. On top of working 9-9 tuesday through friday. When i start working again the only day i will get to see him is Sunday afternoons IF he doesen't ditch me to go talk sports with the guys. He has band practise on Thursday nights, and then plays with the church band on Sunday mornings and we have to go to his boss's house for the family brunch after mass.
To top it all off the idiots at Rogers screwed up so nobody came to install my Cable for TV or Internet or Phone so i've been sitting at home all day WAITING for them to show up. All i had was the radio to listen too. I felt like **** sitting there alone. I can't bare to look at another box but i can't unpack half of it because every time i open a box all i see is junk i don't want and that i need to go through with Mark because it's alot of his stuff.

:censored: I don't even know what to do. The one fun thing i have isn't workin for me right now. I wanted to upload the photos from the wedding photographer but Photobucket is being stupid.

ARRRRRGGGH!

Sorry about the rant.... but it's toally been that kinda week. What eles is going to go wrong?!

WhiskeyGirl

08-06-2006, 02:25 AM

When it rains it pours eh Jenn?? I'm sorry all this is accumulating on you Honey! It's so harsh...sounds like a lot of things aren't working for you or in your favor. Start by sitting down with Mark and talking with him about how much you need him around. Can he get different hours at work? I realize now that with you being out of work he probably needs to pick up extra hours, but is there something? How far is his work from your home? Could you take him dinner or go have dinner with him when he's there? and as far as those sunday brunches...the two of you need to start your own traditions even if it means going home after church climbing back into your jammies and cuddling in bed or having HIM make YOU breakfast in bed. ;) Remember that all those other people will always be around and that you need to take the time to nurish and nuture your marriage. Maybe the two of you can work something out so that maybe only every other week he goes with his buddies or once a month or something! I don't think he should be buggering off instead of spending time with his beautiful loving and adoring wife! ;) Good luck Sweet Pea!! I hope things start working out better for you!!!! If you're ever bored you can write me a letter! ;) Take care Hun!!!! :D

rainbowtreat

08-06-2006, 11:01 AM

Jen I hope your having a better day today. I am sure all will work out fo rya. Just holdyour chin up and remember we are here for you.

AngelinLove

08-06-2006, 11:06 AM

Jenn I am really sorry that all of this is coming at you at once!!! You are such a sweet, beautiful person and don't deserve all this c r a p. Unfortunately life just sucks sometimes and it really tests our strengh and sanity!!! I agree with Shawna that you and Mark need to spend time together right now to nurture and nourish your marriage...and since you have limited time to do so...you should really talk to him about making more time for the two of you. There has to be a way that people can compromise about after church brunches and hangin with the guys. Every other weekend should be for the two of you...and then one weekend you guys can go to teh brnch and teh other he can hang with the guys!!! You need him right now and I sure that if you talk to him he will understand. I really hope that things start to look brighter for you really soon. We all love you around here and will always be here for you if you just wanna talk or need us!!! Please just PM me if you ever need to talk!!!!!

Jenn060306

08-06-2006, 04:45 PM

Thanks Shawna, Gwen, and Angel.
Mark and i had a talk when he got home from work on Friday. He is going to be working Saturdays for a trial time. If we find it's too difficult on us his boss is totally cool. But it will give him time to train one of the other employee's to do all the things that need to be done on Saturdays. He also agreed that going to band practice every week will be alot to handle as well. This morning we slept in and read the paper.... it was nice. Today we're having a big family thing at my mom's. Tommorrow we are going to head up to his dads. So it will be a good afternoon in the car just hainging out.

I'm feeling a little better about everything. But i still need to a get a job. Mark is really scared about making it all work. We never even had a chance to save up a month or so of rainny day funds. I sent out a bunch of resumes. But then discovered i put the wrong area code. Ya.... that was totally the icing on the top.

Anyways.... i spose i can't go anywhere but up from here. Or atleast i hope so. Thanks for all the positive words. I should be getting the internet at home on Monday morning so next week i'm sure i will be arround catching up with everyone.

WhiskeyGirl

08-06-2006, 05:01 PM

Glad to hear that you and Mark had a chat and things are starting to look up a little! It's probably easier to take baby steps then to jump to moon walking! ;) Good luck Honey!! :D

ikkin510

08-07-2006, 10:12 AM

Jenn060306

08-08-2006, 01:07 PM

Oh Jenn, first off I want to send you a big hug!! :hug: Good luck with finding a new job. I hope that you can Mark can spend more time together soon. If I had the vacation time availible I would drive up there and help you unpack and just have some fun. Keep your chin up girl. I'm sure things will straighten out soon!

Nikki you are so sweet!
I am really hoping that things get better soon. I feel like i am just falling into a deep dark hole.
Today i am totally bummed out. I got to my mom's and all i wanted to do was curl up and have a nap. She made me eat somthing cause i hadn't yet today. I have no interest really. She told me that being depressed will change my desire to eat. I guess i am more depressed about it all then i thought. Other people seem to be noticing that i'm not my usual self. But.... should i be?! I dunno.
I want to unpack. I think i will feel better. But i am no motivation at all. It's so quiet and lonely at home. If the stupid internet wasn't delayed some more i would atleast have my friends on msn to talk to while i puttered arround. But no.... it's the radio and Dusty. I don't really want to call anyone because i don't want to use up all the minutes on my cell phone. Then we'd really be in trouble. Nobody could call me then, that doesen't help in getting a job.

I am going to head over to Dollarama this afternoon and pick up some baskets for all my pens and markers to go in. I decided to switch to what we were using as our dinning room table as my desk and Mark is using my old desk now. Much more space which is nice. But there are no drawers so its kinda junk haven there. If i get myself all organized in the office i think i will feel better being in there once the internet is up and going. Organization is the key. Plus.... i will be more inspired for my own design stuff.

I have been racking my brain for some ideas on my comapny name. I don't want to say Graphic Design only. I want to give some indication that i design wedding intivations, rsvps, map cards, menu cards, place cards, programs etc. Then that shower invitations, birth announcements, thank you cards, etc. I just haven't figured out the right word for it all yet. Definatly i will do general graphic design too. But i want to be a little more specific.

Ah well.... it will come to me soon enough.

Jenn060306

08-08-2006, 08:36 PM

Ok! Finally some good news in my life!

I was talking to my friend Chris tonight and he was telling me that he needs to design a logo for a plumbing company. He isn't a graphic designer but does web design. So i mentioned that i am looking for some freelance work. Not intending him to give me any but just cause it seemed to be the natural progression of the conversation. Anyways.... he asks if i want to do the design for him. SURE! So tommorrow he will be getting the information and calling me with it.
Then.... my cell just rang and low en behold! It's a guy calling about my resume. RIGHT ON! So i have an interview tommorrow evening! I am really happy about it! 2 job prospects in a matter of an hour. How bizzar!

Wish me luck! I am going to need it i think with how everything has been going lately. Now i need to go home and work on my portfolio so i can get it re-printed and to date!

MOB Karen

08-08-2006, 09:26 PM

Good luck on your job prospects, Jenn!!! I hope you get one of them!!! :D

WhiskeyGirl

08-08-2006, 11:14 PM

Good luck Jenn Jenn!! It's going to work out for you I know it!! :D

Jenn060306

08-09-2006, 02:53 PM

Hey Hey!

Well i had a Dr. Appointment with my family Dr. Follow up to my last appointment and everything that happend in the hospital. I was happy to hear she had more insight into some of the test results then the e.r. dr. gave me.
The CT scan showed a large cyst on my left ovarie and a small one on my right. Large being about 5cm and the small being 1 1/2cm. So she has sent me for a second ultra sound and more blood work and to see 2 different specialists. Hopefully they will be able to determine if they are growing, shrinking, or staying the same. If they are staying the same or growing and causing me alot of pain they will most likely remove them. But i won't know that for sure for another 2 weeks i imagine.
Mark called me this afternoon to see how things were going and i just burst into tears. I am so worried about everything. I know so little it feels like. And i feel like i am searching for answers in all the wrong places. The anxiety is kickin up on this one. But i know there is no point in getting upset until i know what's happening for sure. So i have a slew of appointments in the next 2 weeks. Hopefully if i get a job before then they will be understanding of the situation.

Speaking of Jobs. I have an interview tonight. And one in the morning for Benjamin Moore. It's only a P/T position mixing paint and such. But.... It's better then nothing.

Anyways... I should go do the shopping for today. We desperatly need one of those grippy bath tub mats. This morning i found myself standing still but sliding down the tub. I am scared i am going to fall on my face. The crummy part of a new house is all the new things you seem to need. There weird thigns too. LOL oh well.

Oh! And news on the internet at home! YAY! They are going to install a temp line on Friday (supposedly) So we will get somthing while we wait for the new line to be burried. The girl i spoke with was super nice and totally understanding. You never realize how much you use the internet and tv until you don;t have it anymore. Both Mar and i are going a little crazy without it. Mar even tried to see if there was any wireless connections he could mooch off last night. Nothing. Bah! lol!

I'm an internet junkie!

AngelinLove

08-09-2006, 03:00 PM

Jenn...I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers...I hope that everything turns out fine at the Dr.'s and really wish you the best!!! I also hope that you find soem work soon...believes me..I knwo how it can be to not have a job and to need one!!!

ikkin510

08-09-2006, 05:27 PM

Jenn, good luck with your job interviews!!! You'll have to keep us updated on how things go.
I will definatly be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers about the job and now the dr. Hopefully it's nothing major. Good luck with all the test and appointments coming up!

Jenn060306

08-10-2006, 01:13 PM

Thanks Angle and Nikki. I love coming online and seeing all your kind words and feeling how much you guys support me. It's definatly made me feel better having girls like you in my life. I don;t have alot of close girlfriends who i can talk to about some of this stuff.

Last night i had to keep from crying. I told my SiL/best friend about what the dr. said and she then totally freaked me out by telling me about hte lady down the street who had a large cyst growing within another one. She had to have them removed but the dr. didn't know if they would have to remove her ovarie as well. It all depended on where it was and how the veins where attached and such. She didn't have her ovarie removed. But hearing Kim tell me that made me affraid that i might have a similar problem. And if i loose an ovarie how much will it affect our ability to have children? I haven't thought much about having them until just recently. We talked about trying in the spring. But nothing to serious. But now my heart just hurts because i am so scared of loosing my ability before i even had a chance. I want to do some research on it, but since we don't have the internet at home yet i haven't had the time to do it. I don't want to worry about it until i've been told by the Dr.s it is somthing to worry about. But my heart just aches. I didn't realize how badly i want to have a family until resently. Sorry i know i am rambleing now.

So... the interviews went well. I should get a call early next week from them. The Graphic Design one i really liked. They are a family owned company. They also hired a grad of Georgian before who worked with them for a number of years before he began his own company. The second one was for Benjamin Moore. I would be a decorator. Helping people with choosing colours and picking accessories. I also would be doing displays and such. I wouldn't mind this job. It's a bit further for me to travel though which would be tough.
Hopefully i will hear back soon. I am continuing to send out resumes and such. But somthing by Septemeber would be very helpful. We're good for Aug. after that is a worry.

WhiskeyGirl

08-11-2006, 02:31 AM

Jenn060306

08-11-2006, 06:05 PM

Jenn

Honey, I think I've told you before about my Grandma. She had her right ovary (or was it left...lol..I can't remember) removed and ya know what?! She went on to have eight pregnancies, seven resulting in live births!! And if they have to remove your ovary, they can freeze eggs. You can also use an egg donor that some one donates an egg and then they use Mark's sperm and your uterus. There are many ways around things. I know you know that I totally understand where you are coming from. There are many drugs out there to help shrink cysts...or to keep them in check!! I'm here for you if you need anything!! I will keep you in my thoughts!! :D Take care Sweet Pea!!

Thanks Shawna!
You've been the best person to talk to about all this. You really know more then anyone eles. My Dr. hasn't given me much insight into alternatives if they are needed. From now on.... you're Dr.Shawna! lol!

Today has been alright. Internet is still not working at home. If its not happy on Monday i will have Mark call and rip a strip off them. I'm too tired to do it these days. I've had too much stomic and back pain. I just want to sleep really.
I went to Costco and returned the Toaster Oven we got for the wedding. We already have one. We don't need another one. They gave me a gift card which is fun. That was one EXPENSIVE toaster oven. $113 was refunded to me. i had to get a new membership card since i lost mine. And of course.... when i got home i found my old membership card. grr! But.... now i have 2. There are no exuses now.
Everywhere i drove i felt like i was surrounded with idiots. People turning left on lights that were so red they were green my way. Not stopping at stop signs and cutting me off. If i didn't break so well i probably would have t-boned someone today. JOY!

Ahh well... My friend Laura is coming to visit on Monday so things will perk up and she'll keep me occupied while i wait to hear back on the job interviews and on test results.

WhiskeyGirl

08-12-2006, 12:58 AM

Thanks Shawna!
You've been the best person to talk to about all this. You really know more then anyone eles. My Dr. hasn't given me much insight into alternatives if they are needed. From now on.... you're Dr.Shawna! lol!

Today has been alright. Internet is still not working at home. If its not happy on Monday i will have Mark call and rip a strip off them. I'm too tired to do it these days. I've had too much stomic and back pain. I just want to sleep really.
I went to Costco and returned the Toaster Oven we got for the wedding. We already have one. We don't need another one. They gave me a gift card which is fun. That was one EXPENSIVE toaster oven. $113 was refunded to me. i had to get a new membership card since i lost mine. And of course.... when i got home i found my old membership card. grr! But.... now i have 2. There are no exuses now.
Everywhere i drove i felt like i was surrounded with idiots. People turning left on lights that were so red they were green my way. Not stopping at stop signs and cutting me off. If i didn't break so well i probably would have t-boned someone today. JOY!

Ahh well... My friend Laura is coming to visit on Monday so things will perk up and she'll keep me occupied while i wait to hear back on the job interviews and on test results.

Lol...don't call me doctor...I don't want to be in the same bucket as half them dumb bums! lol. Ok I'm just kidding....I just have done a lot of research in trying to find out what is wrong with me!!! I know only what I've read and what I've heard from others. If you want answers, you definately should ask your doctor and make her/him tell you! Good luck Sweet Pea!! :D

Jenn060306

08-13-2006, 11:45 PM

Today has been pretty good. I've been jacked up on pain killers but that's ok. As long as they are doing somthing to help!
Mark and i have spent all day together. We went for breakfast first thing this morning at a local dinner. My parents showed up just after we did so we alll had breakfast together before heading off in our own directions. They were going to 'worship' and home depot. We had to head back to the house and wait for the cable guy to come. Thankfully he wasn't super late and he was able to fix the problem! HURRAY for the internet at home again!
We worked on unpacking some more. Got some art up on the walls. Mark is going to clean out under the cupboards in the kitchen for me tommorrow. I looked under them after my mother insisted they were ok as they were and found the last tenants barely and macaroni noodles. I was so discusted i was nearly sick. Other peoples 'clean' makes me sick to my stomic. I can't stand not knowing things arn't MY clean.
We talked alot today. Just about stuff going on right now and life in general. I've been worrying about alot of little things. Things Mark thinks are silly to worry about. So he told me a story.
A professor goes into his philosphy class one day. He fills a large jar with rocks and asks his students if it is full. They say yes. Then he pulls out another jar with sand and pours it into the jar of rocks. The sand fills in all the empty spaces arround the rocks. He asks the class again if it is full. They say yes. This demonstration was to show that the major parts of your life like your friends your family etc are the rocks and the sand is just the filler. Sand being things. If you fill the jar with sand first. Then there is no room for the rocks.
Mark told me this story because he thinks i am worried about too many little things. But i feel like the little things are easier to worry about then the rocks. Rocks for me are my friends and family. But also my job. Or lack there of. My health etc. If i worry about them too much it just makes everything more painful it seems. I'm hoping to get more information this week about what is going to happen. Figure out what options are available for us.

Tommorrow night my best friend Laura is coming to visit. I can not wait! I totally need a little goofiness in my life right now. We're going to do some shopping and visit with some of the guys from the bridal party. Good times Good Times!

Mark's birthday is coming up really quick. I still haven't figured out what i want to get him. but i am thinking i am going to take him to Toronto for the day. Go to the CN tower or the Science Centre. Then dinner at some obscure whole in the wall. Maybe with Curried Chicken! I haven't had that work a while. I'm totally craving it! YUMMA! I need ideas and i am totally lacking there! boo!

Jenn060306

08-13-2006, 11:50 PM

Another room in the apartment is getting close to being completed.
The office. The walls are a mess. So poorly done now that i have been looking at them more. You can see wear they taped the drywall. ugh! Makes me a little crazy. But oh well. Here is is!

http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Life/IMG_2204.jpg
Looking in from the living room. That's my desk and mac

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Both our desks against the wall with the windows. I love being able to day dream out the window. I've got my cork board up ready for my postcards to go up when i find all the pins.

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My hubby paying sim city and the mess of boxes that need to be unpacked of books and loaded up onto the book shelves. Tommorrow i hope to finish that i think.

Jenn060306

08-13-2006, 11:51 PM

I have to share this photo because i love it so much! He looks so comfy and cute! Stashed out from being a little terror when the cable guy was here.
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Life/IMG_2202.jpg

MOB Karen

08-14-2006, 11:11 AM

Oh, that is a really cute picture of your cat, Jenn! What a great spot to hide out! :D

ikkin510

08-14-2006, 11:23 AM

Jenn-
I love your cat. Everytime I see a picture, it makes me want one. Too bad Steve is allergic!
Congrats on having another room almost put together! You'll be done with the house in no time. HOpe you have a good time with your friend tonight!

Jenn060306

08-15-2006, 12:46 AM

Today was a complete rollercoaster ride for me!
I woke up at 850am to my friend calling. I was like.... 'who calls this early?!?!' But since i was up i thought i should get going on the massive list of things i had to do. I hopped in the shower, when i got out i realized that the curtain must not have been closed properly because there was close to an inch of water on the floor. Everything was soaked including my pajama's. I was NOT impressed. We went to the Ministry of Transportation to get our drivers licences updated with our new addresses and it was soooo easy! We walked in and were helped right away and the lady was super nice. Not crusty at all! Then we went over to the OHIP office to change our health cards and i ask just to confirm that i still needed to wait until i got the marriage certificate from the office of the registrant in Sept before i could change my name like with my drivers licence. Nope.... i can change it with the certificate the church gave me. WHAT?!?! Ugh.... so i don't have it with me, so i have to go back. When i go back i realize AFTER waiting that i forgot to grab it! GRRR ARRGH! lol! So i will have to go back again because i didn't have the time to go back again later today. This afternoon i had a complete breakdown cause i was worrying so much about not having a job yet and being able to afford everything we need. Mark did the math and we are totally fine. But i worry so much about it. I feel really guilty. So i went over to the Senca Job search and made an appointment for tommorrow morning. Hopefully they will be helpful in directing me in the right direction. I have a good resume for Graphic Design.... But nothing that works well for my other skills in office admin and reception type stuff. I totally don't want to get into Interior Design. I know i could really easily. But i feel sick to my stomic thinking about it all.

Tonight i picked up a bunch of the wedding gifts Mark and i got from my mom's house. We openned and unpacked the spice rack and pot set we got and made dinner together. Tortalenni with tomato sauce. It was great! And we had it on the massive fiestawear pasta bowls. It was so much fun!

It's been so weird. It's up then down then back up again. I can't win! The lady with VISA was awsome and so sweet. She congratulated me on the wedding a number of times and totally knew what i needed to know and didn't need to check everything with someone eles.

I've been so annoyed with what who will accept for changing my name. MOST places are cool with the Certificate we got at the church. But the drivers licence wouldn't let me do anything until 3 months after i was married when i can send in the paper work and more money (surprise surprise) for another certificate. Apperently the church one isn't valid. If i knew that i would have done it sooner and just changed me address now since it is so easy.

ARGH! oh well.... We're married and loving it! lol!

Jenn060306

08-16-2006, 05:55 AM

This morning i am feeling super un-well. I am so nautious its not even funny. I wasn't feeling great when i went to bed either. But this is down right bad. I can't find the gravol either. Of course.

Good news is funny in our house. We got alot at the same time and then got for a long time before getting anymore.

First off. This afternoon i found out Mark and i did get the townhouse. So now we need to weigh our options and decide if we are going to stay here or move closer to his work and save some money. Not to mention it is bigger. Tommorrow (or tonight really) we will have to talk indepth about this.

Secondly. Tonight i was offered a job as a Graphic Designer for a local sign company in town. I was exstatic! I start this coming Thursday! It will be fantastic! I start at 830am. So Mark can drop me off on his way to work in the morning and i can walk home in the evenings. I won't have the same crazy hours as i did at my previous job which will be nice.

I'm a little bummed/fustrated with Mark's work right now. I didn't really put it all together until last night. But his birthday lands on a Satrday this year. But now he works ever saturday. Then this year the staff of the music store are all going to a music convention on the sunday. Which means i won't get to see him the day after either. Then monday when he would be home. I will mostlikely have to work all day. So i won't get to actually do the things i was hoping to do for his birthday. He is so hard to shop for. He want's a new guitar and all sorts of equipment. But i didn't think i could make it work where we were at at that time. So i was thinking i would take him to Toronto to go to the CN Tower and dinner downtown. Make a whole day trip on me. Maybe we can do this in September. But i was hoping to tell him i had his birthday surprise at Brunch on Sunday (the day after his b-day).

I am so lost now. I have 10 days to find him somthing great. This year he got me a Mattew Good Book and an easel for painting. They are sooooo fantastic! I don't know what to get that even compares to that. :(

hummingbird521

08-16-2006, 06:48 AM

Hang in there with things. It sounds as if things are looking up for you. Landing a job and townhouse is wonderful news. As for the birthday I know it may not be much consolation, but there will be many more of them.

Valmai

08-16-2006, 07:58 AM

Jenn060306

08-16-2006, 09:18 AM

Thats great news aboutt he job - good luck with it!! Bit of a tough decision about the house innit after settling where u are! It was Jamies b'day yesterday and he had to work too - isn't it difficult to get themn that 'something special'? lol xxx

OMG sometimes i think i might just loose it not knowing what to get him. He really would like some more guitar stuff. But he totally understands that money is a bit tight right now. He doesen't want me to go dollar for dollar on what he spent on me. But i feel like i should spend atleast half.

Jenn060306

08-16-2006, 09:26 AM

Mark and i had a bit of a chat this morning about the town house. He's feeling a bit like we shouldn't try to break our lease and give it a chance here. Also he has some bad feelings about the people who live on the street because we got yanked arround so much by them. I can totally understand how he is feeling. I'm feeling a bit of the same way. But i am also thinking about long term. It's bigger so we would be able to live there longer then a year. If we decided to start our family it would be great. He can walk to work in 2 min where as were we are now it's about a 20 min walk to were i will be working. I think that's totally fine in the spring summer fall.... but the winter could be not so nice. We'd save about $200 a month too. Ok so i'm back to making good money and we can totally afford this place we are in now. But imagine how much we could save for a new house!
Hopefully tonight we will get to sit down and write out the pro's and con's of everything and make a decision based on that. I wish they could have told us in the interview. We would have stayed with our families for a month if we needed.

Jenn060306

08-16-2006, 02:14 PM

Ok. So i am kinda really annoyed. My friend came to visit for a couple days. Last night we went out with Mark, and some our friends from highschool. It was fun and everything. But my friend was being kinda annoying. She kept saying 'who want's to buy me another beer' I think she had about 4 or 5 beers and then a Dr. Pepper shot as well. At one point she went to the washroom and was gone for about 15 min before i went to find her. She looked as if she had been sick. But she said she was fine. She was just messed up. She said that she would drive but there was no way she could so i had to drive home because thankfully i only had 2 drinks when i got there and water the rest of the night because my stomic was hurting alot. Her Mark and i get home and we're walking up the driveway and she turns arround and starts walking back to her car. She then throws up all over the driveway and lawn. Great. She attempted to wash it away with some water from an old water bottle in her car. But a mark still is there this morning.
We get in an we all go to bed. And then her frickin cell phone keeps ringing on the coffee table next to her. On the third attempt i go and slamb my bedroom door. Thinking maybe that might get the point across. Nope.... The 4th time i just drop the phone onto the sofa next to her head. I think she got about 7 calls that she didn't hear to answer. I was so annoyed because i was feeling so queasy (not because i drank but because of the stomic issues) and i wanted to sleep.
I woke her up this morning arround 11am. I'd already been up for 3 hours checking my e-mail reading a book talking to my mom. I got her up and she jumped into the shower got dressed then curled back up on the sofa. I was under the impression we might go and do somthing today. So i ask her and she says yup ok. So we drop by my MiL's to feed the cat. then wander over to the mall. Since i got this new job i was thinking maybe a new shirt or 2 would be a good idea. We went into old navy and she starts sitting down on the displays. I was really kinda bothered by that. I asked if she wanted to leave and she said no. So i said 'let me know' she follows me arround the store and then as we're leaving she says is there anywhere eles you really want to go? Ummm.... ok. Well ya i guess Ricki's (they have great work cloths IMO) So we go down there and she doesen't even come in. She curls up in a ball on the bench in front. So i just skim through and don't even bother trying on anything that caught my eye.
So we've come back home. And now she is having a nap in my bed. She asked and i said it was fine. But when she saw i had made my bed she didn't really want to. But i would rather that then her on the sofa in the middle of the living room so i feel like i have to be super quiet and i can't watch TV.
I really kinda feel like why did she bother? She's planning on leaving after dinner tonight. So.... probably in 6 hours and shes sleeping now. I could be out doing things that i need to get done this being my last week day off for a while. I could have driven Mark to work so i could have our car for the day and not just be wasting my time and then have to go to the grocery store at 10pm to get some lunch food for work tommorrow. ARGH!
I want to say somthing. But at the same time i don't feel like its worth it. She said teh Stella didn't agree with her. Which is fine. I've had that happen. But maybe if she hadn't drank so much....ugh. I feel like a b*tchy friend.

ikkin510

08-16-2006, 03:22 PM

Congratulations on the new job Jenn. That is great news! Good luck with making your decision on the town house. Does the lease you have with your apartment now say anything about breaking it early? Like do you have to pay a certain amount of money if you leave before the year is up?
I'm sorry to hear you friend is being a bit of a drag. Honestly, that would annoy me to no end to! You're being nicer to her then I may have been!
Anyway, good luck on your first day at the new job! Don't forget to update us as soon as you get a chance!

Jenn060306

08-18-2006, 07:08 PM

Yesterday i started at my new job. It was good! I haven't started into doing alot of design work because they have been super swamped with a bunch of jobs so i have been doing alot to help them out with that. It's nice because i am not trapped at a desk all day. Everyone is super nice. And much more my speed. Quiet and friendly. Once things get settled down i will begin creating a promotional package for the company. They want to promote to all their customers the many different things they do. Alot of people don't realize how many services they provide. So that will be lots of good work. Plus they have alot of companies who use them simply for graphics work. So i will get into creating that as well. I am so happy that it is such a positive environment. I'm happier already!

Yesterday i also had my UltraSound. It wasn't pleasant. The technition asked me a bunch of questions and hmmmed and hawwed and made some questionable faces at the comptuer screen. I didn't know what she was looking at all. But she asked me how old i was then 'hmmmed' then asked me if i had any cysts before then made a funny face. Then asked about me previous yearly exams. It totally made me wonder if she could see somthing that was odd for how old i am. Not so good.
Mark opted to come home rather then go to band practise last night so we could talk about whats been going on. We have decided that if by chance the tests come back as not so good and i will have to have surgery and possibly loose my chances of having children we will request that if its safe that we not have anything done until after we have a child and we will begin trying now. Mark has been given a good raise and should be getting one in Feb and again next summer so by the time a baby were to arrive we would be in a much better financial situation so i can stay home.

We've been invited to an engagement party for friends of ours at the end of the month. Then i got an invitation to a Bridal Shower for my cousins fiance at the end of September. I'm not sure i want to go to it or not because it's in Windsor which is about a 3-4hr drive from here. That will be a super long way to go for a shower. I am going to talk to my mom and see if she wants to go. Maybe we'll make a weekend of it and go to Detroit on Sunday for a little shopping. I dunno. But i have to go buy some gifts for the shower and a bottle of wine for the engagement party. My mom keeps telling me to 're-gift' some of the duplicates of the things we got. But i'm just not so sure how i feel about it all.

AngelinLove

08-18-2006, 07:12 PM

Jenn060306

08-18-2006, 08:17 PM

Hey Jenn, congratulations on the new job...I am glad that it seems to be a better fit for you!!! Also, if you do decide to come to Detroit in September let me know!! Maybe we could meet for some dinner or lunch or something...since I am right in the metropolitan area!!!

That would be fun! We will be down in Leamington for sure on October 28th for my cousins wedding. We are planning on staying there for the weekend. So maybe we will have time to meet up. I never realized you were so close. lol!

Jenn060306

08-20-2006, 11:52 PM

Today i lost it. I litterally lost it on Kim. I feel so bad about it. But at the same time i don't because she is my best friend and i consider her to be my older sister. She is pregnant with her 4th child. She is soooo happy and excited about it. And i am too. I love that she is so in love with being a mother and so excited about the new baby. But i couldn't take it anymore. It was just hurting me so much. I started to cry. I told her more about what's going on and my fears of loosing the chance to have a child before i even had it. I want it so badly now. I'm terribly jealous of her. She has never had any trouble getting pregnant. She's had 3 really easy pregnancies and this one is just as easy so far. She tried to make me feel better by telling me that it's good we found it now and i'm getting everything taken care of before we were going to try. Also since my Dr. knows there are issues i will have better care when i am trying and if/when we do get pregnant. My heart just aches these days. I am so scared of what the dr. is going to say on Wednesday. It feels like it is an eternity away.

Mark and i did some shopping today at the Super Store. It was fun. We got some new stuff for the apartment. Finally a bath caddy thing for all the shampoo and soap to go on rather then the ledge of the bathtub. It was nice to walk arround the store with him. It's been a while since we've had the time to go together. Him working on Saturdays and me working on Mondays is really going to be tough on us. Sundays are our only day together and i feel like we are going to be stretched really thin between family and friends.
As it is next weekend will be pretty much miserable. Saturday is Mark's birthday. I still have no clue what to get him. He is working until 5pm. Then we have to go to our friends Engagement Party that night. Sunday he has a music confrence to go to with the guys from work. I have requested that he be home for dinner. But i don't know that he will be for sure. I think i am going to take him to the Keg. He'd really like that. I'd like to take him to Red Lobster. But i think i would be sick before the end of the meal. I HATE seafood so much. It makes me so sick to my stomic. I might take him to the chinease buffet. That was he can have all his fishy food and i can have ice cream and noodles. YUMMA!

I wish i knew what to get him. I really do!

mariaandmanish

08-21-2006, 12:03 AM

Jen, I am really truly sorry about what is happening with you right now!! I will keep you in my thoughts on Wed, and truly hope that you are able to have the children you clearly are hoping for!!:hug: :hug:

Congrats on the new job!! Getting a new job is always exciting, for the new challenges that are coming your way.

WhiskeyGirl

08-21-2006, 12:17 AM

Jenn

I'm sorry to hear that your ultra sound didn't go well. Perhaps if they need to remove one of your ovaries you can have them take some of your eggs and some of Mark's sperm and make embryos that you can implant at a later date. (Freeze them until then!) Or if your eggs are not good anymore, then you can use an egg donor and you would carry the baby. I know where you are Sweet Pea, I know how hard it is. I totally feel for you! I wish you weren't in this position. I just found out my SIL is pregnant...or could be. I'm upset too! I had an anxiety attack and thought I was dying! Hang in there...I will keep my fingers crossed and remember I'm here for you, you can always PM me!!! Take care Sweetie!

ikkin510

08-21-2006, 10:11 AM

Jenn~
I'm sorry to hear the last doctors appointment didn't go that great. I will definatly have you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that you get some better news on Wednesday. If you ever need to talk, I'm hear to listen. Just give me a shout!
Nikki

Jenn060306

08-21-2006, 10:05 PM

Thank you so much Maria, Shawna, and Nikki.
I can not WAIT until Wednesday to get more final results from the Dr. It's making me crazy. All day at work i think about how long every hour seems to be taking.
Hopefully tommorrow will go by quick and so will Wednesday morning.

I got sme new (to me) furniture today. I love Retro Ikea! LOL! My mom gave me a big cabinet for our kitchen. The storage is kind crummy so this is great! My parents bought it in 78 or 79 at Ikea. And now it is mine. he he he!
Mark and i also went shopping at Old Navy. I got a super cute teal V-neck sweater and a pair of pinstriped converse knock off's. Rock on! But i am sooooooo SO mad about this whole tappered leg and beaten up denim look. I found a pair of cords i looooved the colour of but they had the bleach spots and a couple small paint spots. If i wanted beaten up pants i would beat them up myself and NOT look like everyone eles. Maybe on Saturday i will go to the mall again and check out Bluenotes and the Gap for pants. Ah well... There is still some capri weeks left in the year.

Jenn060306

08-22-2006, 06:22 PM

WhiskeyGirl

08-22-2006, 06:31 PM

Jenn060306

08-22-2006, 07:42 PM

What i did today!!!

I found my kitchen! YAY! My mom gave me a cabinet that she wasn't using so we could have more storage for some of the things we got for the wedding. I put a bunch of it away and it looks great! I love it!
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eventually the hutch will get mounted on the wall. But it is very old so it needs some creative thinking to mount it properly.

Since i got the cabinet all together i am able to get my super funky i love them to peices salt and pepper shakers out. I am so scared that Dusty is going to knock them off and break them while i am not looking. So i have been hiding them. Now they can be safely put on display :)

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I saw these in the store and fell in love. They are so obsqure and fun! lol! They make me think of rocks or mis-shapen eggs. I registered for them even though they were $75 because i figured someone would see them and totally get why i loved them so much, or love us that much that they wanted to spend that much on salt and pepper shakers, or were absolutely desperate! lol.
We actually got 2 sets of them. lol. My friend Laura was with me when i found them. So she got it. Then our friend Tyler got us a pair because i told him about them and i was so exsited. lol. We're going to take a pair back. We say that both Tyler and Laura got them for us and then they are gunna get us somthing eles one of these days.

Marks brithday is in 4 days. I'm going to get him Red Hot Chillipepper tickets i think. I just have to confirm that it won't be a problem for him to get the night off work that Tuesday. I should find out by Saturday which is the day i will be able to go get the tickets. If i can't get tickets for those then i will get some for the Virgin Music Festival which is on sept. 10th. I'll either get him the Peppers CD or Sam Roberts CD then surprise him with the tickets after he opens the CD. he he he! I think he will really like it. I am so glad i have finally come up with an idea. And something that we can both enjoy together. If all eles fails.... mabe i will buy him a swing. LOL!

mariaandmanish

08-22-2006, 07:46 PM

Congrats on getting the kitchen set up! I love that part of moving. Usually it's the first thing I do, then I can work on the rest!!

I love your salt and pepper shakers, they're just so different and they really stand out!

Have a great time at Mark's bday, and hopefully he can get the time off. I'm sure he'll love what you're planning, it sounds like a lot of fun!

Good luck at the Dr's tomorrow, I will be thinking of you!

AngelinLove

08-22-2006, 08:11 PM

Good Luck at the Dr.'s tommorow Jenn...I am really sorry that you have to go through all of these...I will be thinking about you!!!

So, let me know about meeting up in Sept. or October...I am here ALL the time...lol!!!

Jenn060306

08-22-2006, 08:47 PM

ikkin510

08-22-2006, 08:48 PM

Jenn060306

08-22-2006, 08:50 PM

So weird.

Tonight i came home from work and found a bottle of Tilex at the foot of our apartment door. I don't know if i should be offended or not. The landlord came in to fix our shower head last week. He probably saw the cat foot prints on the side of the tub. But the foot prints are because the floor was left so dirty when we moved in.

So weird. I don't even know what to think.

Mystery Solved!

lol... Mark called home and i told him about it. He said i definatly shouldn't be offended because when the landlord came to fix the shower head and check out why the tub is drainning so slowly he found that it was terribly clogged because the people who lived there before never cleaned it and he didn't even think to do that before we moved in. So he had to call in a plummer to come up clog it and he recommended the tilex to help clear the pipes when we clean. So he bought us a bottle since he wants us to use it.
Makes sence. Good to know.

Jenn060306

08-22-2006, 08:54 PM

Good luck tomorrow hon! I'll be thinking of you. What time is your appointment?
I love you salt and pepper shakers! They are so cute. And I'm glad you figured out what to get Mark for his birthday. Great idea!! I'm sure he will love the concert tickets!

Thanks!
My appointment is at 1230pm. I have to go back to work afterward.
I will definatly update everyone on what's happening as soon as i can. I really appreciate all your kind words and support these past couple weeks. It's been difficult to cope with at times and it's really been nice knowing i have friends i can talk to and count on when i need a little pep talk. You guys are all amazing!

Jenn060306

08-23-2006, 07:10 PM

My appointment went well. I have 2 more appointments coming up with specialists. From the sounds of it i will have to have surgery. I wont find out for sure when until October 11th. I am going to put myself on the cancelation list to see if i can get in earlier. My Dr. really doesen't want me waiting until October. She made a personal call over to talk to the specailist. That's pretty neat.
So, my dr. said its now about 5cm in size. Any bigger and there begins to have more issues. They don't usually do down in size once they hit that big. But they might. She said either it will stay the same, go away, or burst. FUN! If it bursts i will be in serious pain and will have to be hospitalized. Joy oh Joy.

ikkin510

08-23-2006, 07:59 PM

Well, I'm glad that your appointment didn't go that bad. Hopefully they can get you in at an earlier time and the problems doesn't get worse. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. I'm sending "shrinking" thoughts your way!

Jenn060306

08-24-2006, 07:03 PM

Well i totally gapped on calling to get myself on the cancelation list today. I will have to remember tommorrow. If i can avoid waiting until October that would be fantastic. I actually paid the $2.50 and got on the dirt bus to go home today. I wasn't feeling up for the 30min walk home. The pains haven't been bad today. But bothersom enough that i didn't want to walk that long.

Work was.... fustrating. I am working on the artwork for a vehical wrap and a trailer wrap. The guy has created somthing called 'The Beer Bus' So i've been editing and colour correcting beer all day. But the flippin computer crapped out on me twice. And somehow i lost all my artwork. It's like it vanished. I don't know if Mike messed with it while i was on lunch or what. But it was fustrating to have to re-draw it all. And wait for the computer to load the images. 94" by 64" at 300dpi is a B*tch to load. They are going to get me a new computer to go with my new chair they bought me. Hurray!
I'm enjoying my job. It's much more relaxing then it was at the paper. I feel apperciated and like i actually am good at it. Everyone always made me feel so stupid. Anyways.... i finally got all the artwork done and Mike is going to print it tonight so we can install tommorrow afternoon. I don't know if i will be doing that at all. But hell.... if i can get a break from the slow PC then COOL! I've got a ton of design happening in the morning. I've got a client coming in to discuss some design ideas early. So we'll see.

I'm feeling kinda colourful today. I thought i would use dark purple cause it matches my new t-shirt. It's cute. It's got a couple butterflies on it and the word romance on the side. Then a tiny little quote on love.... "A love affair, specially a brief and intense one." It makes me think of one. Sept our love affair isn't brief. Today i am feeling especailly lovey about Mark. I keep thinking about him and how wonderful he is. I called his cell to leave him an 'i love you' message. He'll get it when he's done work tonight. I can't wait.

Ok. Enough blabbering..... now i should go have some dinner and work on unpacking our bedroom more. Books books and more books.

Jenn060306

08-26-2006, 01:21 AM

I've made it on the cancellation list and there was a message on the voicemail tonight from my Dr. office saying they have an appointment for me. Meaning.... i was bumped up! YAY! I will have to call on Monday to see when it is.
My mother told me the most bizzar thing today. I have a friend for h/s who's mother is good friends with my mother. Every time i started somthing new in my life her mother would brag about her doing the same thing. It was almost like she was trying to one up my mom. Very weird. Anyways.... i was talking with my mom about her today and she told me she had a cyst as well but it burst. She ended up in the hospital having emergancy surgery. They were able to save her ovary and remove all the cyst bits. I thought it was so weird that she was having the same thing as me. I feel terrible that hers burst. But happy because it gives me more hope that i can keep all my organs. I was horribly affraid of not knowing if i was going to wake up and have the Dr. tell me all hopes of having a family were gone.

Tonight a friend of mine who works for a camp came over. She brought crafts with her. It was great fun. We made ducks. I will have to post pictures later on this weekend. I haven't done a craft for such a long time. We had lots of good laughs. I think we both really needed it. She's been having a tough time since her dad passed away. They were really close.

MOB Karen

08-26-2006, 10:03 AM

Hang in there, Jenn!! It will get better!!! I'll keep you in my thoughts & prayers!! :)

Jenn060306

08-27-2006, 12:26 AM

Ugh. I totally feel like i have been whining so much lately when i have posted here. I wish i had more positve things to say. I'm sorry guys.

Well.... Today was Mark's birthday. I feel pretty crummy because i wasn't able to get him the Chilli pepper tickets like i hoped. Then there were no argo's jersey's in dark blue w/o names on them. And the leafs jerseys just weren't right to me. So i got him an argo's hat. He really likes it and is very happy. But i just can't help but feel like a crummy wife. I have NEVER bought his gift on the day of. I've always had a plan and everything. This year i feel like he got the 'I give up' gift. I wonder if he is disapointed and just not telling me.
I bought the wedding gift for my cousins wedding. I found a really nice tin bucket that is all painted up and such. It matches the colour of towels they registerd for as well. So i am going to roll them all up and make a basket of bathroom stuff for them. I got some loofa's, a sea sponge, and shower poof to go in it as well. I'm thinking i will look for a bath brush, some soaps, and some candels too. I still have to get Kristy a Shower gift. Maybe closer to then. I also bought a picture frame for our friends who had the engagement party tonight. I know how many photo's they are going to have after the wedding. Why not have some nice frames for them.

The party was pretty good. Mark and i got to catch up with some friends who we haven't talked to in a couple years. Some of them didn't even know we had gotten married. So it was nice to talk to them again. My MiL told me the my SiL told her i haven't been feeling well lately. She sounded a bit annoyed that i hadn't told her sooner. I had planned on it. I just didn't want to tell them anything before i had some more answers. Then i didn't want to tell her right before she went away on holiday's. She only came back last Sunday night. I haven't been able to call her after work yet until Friday night. And then she wasn't home. I honestly didn't expect my SiL to tell my MiL about it. I kinda thought she would have kept it to herself or asked me if i had told her before telling her. So tonight when i got home i e-mailed my MiL to appologize for not telling her sooner. She was annoyed when we moved because Mark didn't call her soon enough to tell her we had found a place. I don't totally understand why it mattered because she knew the condo was closing at the end of the month so we had to be out no matter what.
I am a bit worried about going to the cottage next weekend. I know this whole health **** is going to come up and i can pretty much garuntee i am going to cry and then feel stupid for crying about it because i haven't actually been told anything. Everyone keeps telling me not to worry about it until i know it's somthing to worry about. But i can not help but worry. I worry about everything. And i am really hurting. I have a funny sick feeling in my chest. I can only eplain it as my heart hurts. Not physcial pain or anything. But.... just it aches because i am so scared and depressed about loosing it all before i even had a hope in hell of having it.
I can not help but feel like i will fail Mark as a wife. I don't know why but i feel like it is my job to be a good wife and a good mother to his children and now i might not be able to even give him them. I am scared that they are going to take they cyst out, do some testing and find that it is cancerous. If that's the case i might loose everything. Not just one cyst. Then i wonder if i will feel like less of a person because i no longer have the peices of me that made me me. I have so little faith anymore. Everything has been going to **** for me. Why not just throw one more thing into the mix.
Ugh.... i hate this. I can't help but wonder why me?! What did i do?

ikkin510

08-27-2006, 10:25 AM

Jenn, I hate that you are feeling so upset and depressed. But, while I don't understand completely what you are going though, I think that I would probably feel the same way if I was in the situation. I would be scared before I even knew what it was. Afraid of what it could be and what it could mean. I know this is probably hard to truely believe, but there is no way you could let down Mark because of this problem. I am sure Mark loves you so much that the only thing that reallly matters to him is that YOU are feeling better and that he has YOU. As I said before, I hope they can move you up to a closer date at the doctors office and that everything works out for the best. I am continuing to keep you in my thoughts and prayers.:hug:

Jenn060306

08-28-2006, 09:49 PM

My appointment with the specailist has been bumped up to Sept 25th. YAY!

I've been trying not to worry about it much until i know more. Can't help it still. Mark and i had a good talk about everything. I've been worried about how he is doing. He hadn't said much. He's not going to waste time worrying until he is told he needs to worry. Makes sence. I also had a good talk with MiL. She was very kinda nd understanding. She offered to take me to my appointments if i needed.

Today has been good. Have had some bad pain.... but nothing i can't handle. I have been trying to avoid taking main killers because i'm worried i won't realize that the pain is getting worse.

Jenn060306

08-29-2006, 02:25 PM

Today i am burning discs of all the wedding photo's for our family and everyone in the bridal party.

The other day i bought baskets to keep things in under the coffee table. I put them there and within a couple minutes this is what i found....

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Ohhhh Dusty. What a nut! He's back in there as a type this.

MOB Karen

08-29-2006, 03:32 PM

They love to get into any box or container. My Dora does the same thing. It's so cute!! :D

Amber818

08-29-2006, 05:57 PM

Mine too Jenn!! They love any new box, bag, anything new...those little rascals. I love them!!!

LaceyinPgh

08-29-2006, 09:15 PM

When Ellie doesn't feel well, she curls up in the laundry basket in Sean's closet to go to sleep.

mariaandmanish

08-29-2006, 10:06 PM

Jenn060306

08-29-2006, 11:33 PM

Whenever I do laundry, I have to make sure that I don't leave anything in the basket for long, Pumpkin loves to curl up in the clean warm clothes. But, he'ss sleep in Manish's laundry basket in the closet as well... especially if he's nervous about something.

Dusty will crawl into the warm laundry too... I caught him once trying to sleep on the oven after i had it on.

mariaandmanish

08-29-2006, 11:46 PM

Dusty will crawl into the warm laundry too... I caught him once trying to sleep on the oven after i had it on.

Wow, the oven! That's one I've never heard! Hopefully Pumpkin never tries that one!

Jenn060306

08-29-2006, 11:51 PM

Wow, the oven! That's one I've never heard! Hopefully Pumpkin never tries that one!

Yeah.... Dusty.... cute... but not so smart. He's tried putting his front paws on the door when we were getting somthing out. I don't think he actually did. But since then our friend Justin calls him Chicken Ball.
He is so curious. It's very strange. Hopefully he won't do anything more bizzar like that.

WhiskeyGirl

08-30-2006, 10:47 PM

Jenn Jenn!!

Sweet Pea, there is something that both you and I need to learn and that is to not blame ourselves for our fertility issues!!! I know because I have the hardest time at not doing it as well. I tell you, I beat myself up every day!!! Remember that even if you can't have children, there are egg donors you can use, they can freeze your eggs, there are a lot of things they CAN do for you!!! And adoption!!! (Adoption is a wonderful thing as well!!:D) And most importantly, remember that Mark married you because he loves you, he did not marry you for your ability to bare children, that is perhaps only an added bonus!!! Take care Sweet Pea, and keep your chin up! Another thing I need to learn and you too, is don't jump to bad conclusions! Wait until the doctor tells you it's bad and then start the real worrying. For now, just let it be, worrying won't change it!! I know it's hard and I'm a hypocrite to say this, but I know and am trying so hard to do the same!! I'm always here for you, take care!!!

Shawna

PS. i got your card yesterday, thank you! :D

Jenn060306

08-31-2006, 08:22 PM

Thanks Shawna, I try not to worry about it. And i try not to feel like i am to blame. I don't know how much i do blame myself. But more anger for what is happening to me. Why?!?!? You know!? I have really been working hard on letting it go and not thinking about it for the next 3 weeks. I am going to do my best.

Today at work a client i was doing design work for asked if i was going to be staying there. The designer before me he was working with and has now left. My boss said i am here to stay. I think that's a good sign. I still have the 3 month probation as far as i know. But it's nice to have such a positive person to work with. Catherine and i have some really great conversations. I feel like she is my friend more then my boss.
When i got home today i discovered my terror of a cat :kitty: had knocked over the bottle of soap in the kitchen. It poured out all over the counter and got in under the Spiderman video game mark had borrowed from our BiL John. Ugh.... it was gross. I had to pull the case apart to wash it and attempt to salvage the cover design. Oh what fun!

Mark has band practise tonight so i am fixin to go to bed early..... looks like i might just make it! YAY!

Jenn060306

08-31-2006, 09:17 PM

Tonights Project...

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I'm buring DVD disks of all the pictures for everyone in the bridal party and our family. I made this cover to add a little somthing to it all. I am really happy with how it came out. I want to do this more now! LOL!

rainbowtreat

08-31-2006, 09:25 PM

Love the CD cover. I bet they will love the gift.

WhiskeyGirl

08-31-2006, 11:42 PM

Hey Jenn

I love the cover it is lovely!! I got your letter today and there is one back int he mail for you! :D Stay strong sweet pea!!!

hummingbird521

09-01-2006, 09:28 AM

I love the CD cover. That is a wonderful idea to by the way. I wish I had thought of doing that. That is really a special gift.

Jenn060306

09-01-2006, 08:07 PM

Well.... It's friday. It's definatly felt like a friday. I kept screwing things up at work today. It was terrible. twice the cutter munched up my vinyl. My sizes for text were all off. Ugh. I was very happy to get to go home a bit early today. Catherine decided it was the long weekend so we could leave early. yay! She dropped me at home so i didn't have to walk either. Thank God.

Mark's got me doing a ton of design work for the music store now. Tonight i have to make a CD booklet as an example for them to advertise that they provide that service now. In the morning i have to install the website lettering to our car and probably Mark's boss' car. Then i am meeting with his boss to come up with a design concept for their logo then all their marketing as well. Fun! It will be good because it's work that get's our name out there. But still.... I am super tired. I don't want to work more when i get home from work. LOL. Lazy eh?!

Tommorrow i've also got to do all the shopping for the cottage. It means i get to go to Costco. But i think it might be crazy busy. being the long weekend and all. I hope i can make it out of there alive. I should do all the packing tonight. Then i don't have to worry as much about rushing home to pack. Hopefully mark took a couple min to clean out the car today. I don't want his sister sitting in the back seat with all his coffee cups.

Anyways, i may not get back before we leave. I will take lots of pictures. Our cottage is beautiful. Hopefully we can convince grandpa not to sell. But i kinda doubt it. Ah well.....

mariaandmanish

09-01-2006, 08:09 PM

Have a great time at the Cottage!

WhiskeyGirl

09-01-2006, 08:12 PM

Have a great time at the cottage! I hope you can convince Grandpa to keep it!! That would be nice wouldn't it!! :D Have a great weekend and drive safely!!! :frogg:

ikkin510

09-01-2006, 08:57 PM

Have a great weekend at the cottage Jenn. Enjoy the no work time!

Jenn060306

09-04-2006, 09:52 PM

Well.... We are back from the cottage. It was ok. It poured pretty much all weekend. The hurricane came up in time to get us apperently. Joy! So we got to sleep in the tent in the pouring rain. It wasn't bad. But i felt like i was on top of Mark the whole time. He weights more then i do so he made a bigger dent in teh air matress. I kept sliding into him. Oh well. It was cozy and he kept me warm. I was pretty bored. We couldn't go outside, so we read and played cards and played with the kids. But it's alot. 11 people in 1 small house can get on your nerves a bit.
Today i made the suggestion that if grampa is keeping it then maybe Mark and i could bring up the double bed we have that we are not using and put it on the enclosed porch so we have a bed. It might make us feel a little more comfortablea and welcome. My idea got shot down by MiL. Fine.... i said to Mar i was a little bothered by it because it was an idea. But whatever. Then Mark and i MiL got into an arguement about it. I felt like **** about it all. It makes me feel even more unwelcome. It's like i have to be a kid, own it, or pregnant to get a bed in that house. And well.... i'm not going to be pregnant any time soon with all this stuff going on. So no matter how much pain i am i'm not pregnant so it doesen't matter.

I have mixed feelings about the cottage being sold. I don't want it to be because it's nice to go and everything. But i do because i don't feel welcome there and i thin it may be keeping Mark and i from doing other things. We talked about renting a cottage for a weekend next summer or going camping with my family. We planned on doing a bunch of weekend get aways this summer but that didn't happen.

We;re going up there for Thanksgiving this year. It's going to be a crazy arse weekend. Mark has to work Friday and Satuday. Then drive almost 3hrs to get there. So it will be about 9pm when we get there. Stay all day sunday. Have dinner. Then leave Sunday morning to get home and cleaned up so we can go to dinner at my mom's. I really wish we didn't have to go for thanksgiving. It's just so much. But..... it's the last year mostlikly....

Mark and i are thinking we are going to possibly go to Florida between Christmas and New Years. Still not totally sure because we want to be with our families as well. But considering we still havent had a honeymoon and don't get much time on our own it would be really nice to go away in the winter.

Well.... i am pooped. Our neice and nephew woke us up early this morning. They are oh so cute! HA! I need a nap cause work comes early tommorrow. Ugh.....

WhiskeyGirl

09-04-2006, 09:58 PM

Arggg! What is it with family?? BOO to them!

And nice, we'll meet you in Florida and we'll have a great time!! :D

Jenn060306

09-05-2006, 04:08 AM

And nice, we'll meet you in Florida and we'll have a great time!! :D

Deal! Sounds awsome!

WhiskeyGirl

09-05-2006, 05:00 PM

Deal! Sounds awsome!

Doesn't it sound devine! If you're going let me know, Matt and I've discussed going south for the winter! ;)

Jenn060306

09-07-2006, 09:19 PM

Well... It's been a couple days. I have been super busy with work and doing stuff with my mom after work. I'm exhausted. I can't figure out why. But i can barely get myself out of bed these days. It's terrible. I feel terrible. I need a good sleep i think.

We got an invite to my cousins wedding yesterday. It is really beautiful. We are looking forward to it. It's just outside of Windsor. I'm thinking maybe we might take an extra day or two out there. just to have some time on our own. Or possibly drive over to Niagra falls for a night. We need the time together. Away from all the things happening here.

Mark and i haven't seen eachother much lately. It really sucks. We went to the cottage this past weekend but it felt alot like i was there alone. There were so many other things going on. Plus we were trapped in the cottage all weekend because of the rain so there wasn't a single moment to be alone and talk to eachother. Last night he had to drop by his mothers house and i was pretty much asleep by the time he got home at 1030-11pm. Then tonight he has band practise so he won't be home until midnight at the earliest. GUH! I'll get a little time with him tommorrow night when he gets home. But by 10-1030pm i am sooooo tired i can not stay up. Saturday he works and Sunday i am helping my mom with her friends daughters baby shower. Then we're back at Monday again and the vicious circle keeps on going. I want to say to him that him doing band practise isn't working. It's too hard on us with him gone all day Saturday too. He works 55hrs a week. There isn't a single night we can do anything together anymore. I want to cry. I need him right now. But he's digging himself deeper into project after project that doesn't include me. I don't know what is going on. I don't know what to do or say. I feel like i'm not even sure who he is these days. I don't know what he has been doing at all.

Jenn060306

09-08-2006, 08:49 AM

Wow.... just when you think things can not get any worse.... they do. JOY!
This morning i went into work all happy and stuff. I felt better. I got some sleep. It was great. Catherine says she needs to talk to me. And i could tell something was up. She was much more shakey and nervous then she usually is. Well.... because her and her son are really not getting along well and they are totally stressing because they are so busy they have to let me go. WHAT?!?! They apperently don't have the time to train me and give me the help i need. So they frickin let me go.
GREAT! So now in a matter of 3 months i have managed to loose 2 jobs because i am not good enough to do the job. FAAAANTASTIC! No wonder i lost my first job for not having enuogh confidence. Nobody frickin allows me to feel any good about myself. I am a complete idiot i guess. I don't think i will ever make it in the real world. Why not give up now. I can't friggin learn anything because nobody will give me a flippin chance.
I really am dreading having to start another job. I will be in constent fear of loosing it again. I really liked Catherine. She was sweet and easy to talk to and work with. She cried. Which made me cry. But for the love of God. Now what am i supposed to do. I am just an idiot. Wasting everyones time and money.

hummingbird521

09-08-2006, 08:52 AM

I am so sorry to hear about this. Hang in there and don't give up. How rotten of them to do this to you. Maybe it is God's way of letting you know it would have been wrong for you in the first place and that he has better plans for you in the future.

ikkin510

09-08-2006, 09:27 AM

First off Jenn, you are NOT an idiot! You are a wonderful, care, fun, lovable woman. I"m so sorry to hear about your job. I know you loved it and really looked forward to going every day. I'm sure it's really frustrating, but you will find another job that you won't get fired or let go from. People rush through life and don't take the time to do simple things, like train a wonderful worker who would have been a huge asset to the business! I will definatly keep you in my thought and prayers while you are looking for another job. Maybe now you have a little time to be home and work on some of your own design ideas for the business you want to have one day!
As for Mark, I think you need to sit him down and seriously talk to him. Let him know how stressed out you are, that you're upset because you never get to spend time with him and that you feel like you barely know him. Spill everything. You really need your time together. I'm sure all this stress is not helping you feel any better. So hopefully being able to talk to him and at least work out a solution for not seeing him will relive that and some other things.
Good luck Sweetie. And like I said, you are in my thoughts and prayers. If you need anything, give me a shout!:hug: :frogg:

Jenn060306

09-08-2006, 12:42 PM

Thanks Treasia & Nikki.

I'm ok.... i'm just seriously struggling with where i fit into the world. I just want to cry. And i have no faith in God's plan anymore. Or really him. I use to think i was a good person. But i guess i did somthing at some point to piss him off because it just feels like one thing after another is trying to destroy me. I don't feel like this is going to make me stronger. That's what i have tried telling myself. That bad things have only made me better. I think bitter is the word that is more appropriate now.

Why do bad things happen to good people?! :sorry:

My mom and i talked alot about this. She is very upset and angry because of this. She's in tears because she's so sad that all this **** keeps happening to me. It's made her more mad at her sister because she's so 'woe is me'. She said she wishes i would just be given a break. Me too. For once i wish somthing could be easier for me. This is not making me stronger. It is making me want to give up.

I haven't told Mark yet. I figure i may as well wait until he got home tonight. Not let him worry about what we are going to do now. I've already started applying for jobs. But i seriously need to think about what i want to do with my life. I want to work for myself. But i need to figure out how i am going to do that and make it work. My mom told me she would help me with it if that's what i am going to do. But she thinks i need to do somthing while i get it off the ground. Maybe i will get a job at the Art store or somthing. Mindless stuff to pay the bills so i can design my heart out when i get home and get my name out there as a designer. I'm just not even sure where to start with it. I guess by making concepts and a portfolio for clients to see. I would rather work for myself because then i could make my own hours and decide which job i am going to do for who. I can take time on Monday's when Mark is home so we can spend a little more time together so him working on Saturdays won't be so difficult on us.

Mark came home last night. He didn't go to band practise. He decided he needed to come home and see me. We talked about it all. It was good. He understands better how stressed and bummed out i have been. Hopefully Monday will be good for us. Sleep in and just get our stuff done arround the house. Maybe do somthing together like see a movie.

ikkin510

09-08-2006, 04:52 PM

I think the idea at working at an art store until you can get a business of your own going is a great idea. You are still in the field you like, but you have more time to work on your stuff.
:hug: I really do hope things look up for you. I may have to take a road trip up there to get you out and about though...we can go out and have some fun. Get your mind off everything!

Jenn060306

09-08-2006, 07:30 PM

Thanks Nikki.
I'm thinking i might pack myself up and go away for a little bit. Just escape the world and be alone. Get all my anger and furstrations out and come back with a fresh start.

Jenn060306

09-10-2006, 07:09 PM

Well.... I have been trying to remain postive. And reminde myself that things will get better. But i am having alot of trouble with it. I can feel myself falling back down into a dark pit. I am very angry i guess you can say.
I am tired of it all. I am really feeling like ****. I am phsycially hurting alot. But emotionally i am hurting alot too. I don't know how much more i can take. I am terrified of what the GI is going to tell me on Friday. With my luck they will have bad news. I don't get much good news any more. I just want to cry most of the time. Then if i tell anyone how i feel they just make me feel guilty about it because they are upset or offended by what i have to say about my life and the whole situation.
Ok.... So i am a pesimist. I won't deny it. But i haven't had alot to make me feel better about it all lately. I wish i could just say what is on my mind and be hoonest about how i feel and not have someone tell me i am wrong for feeling that way. How am i supposed to belive it will get better?! It hasn't yet!

Anyways.... i know you guys who read my journal don't want to read about all the crummy things. So here is some other non related things. :grinhappy:

Mark and i made $38 at our garage sale on Saturday. Sold some oof our stuff we no longer needed because we got new as wedding gifts. We are going to use that money to get some new stuff for the apartment at Ikea. Mark is thinking he'd like to go on Monday afternoon. We might get ourselves a new bed. :whoohoo:
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Life/22200_PE107067_S4.jpg
We have some gift cards for Ikea as well.... I think it's $50 more then what we were given. We are also going to get some new roman shades for the office and kitchen. As it is right now we have a green garbage bag in the window to keep some of the westerly sun out. It gets sooooooo bright and VERY warm in there.
Today i helped my mom with her friends DiL's baby shower. It was nice. It was all the ladies from my mom's bridge group. They all pitched in to get her a play pen. They also all brought little gifts. Lots of baby booties and sleepers. SO CUTE! It was a nice afternoon. I think everyone had a good time. Thankfully nobody asked me when we were going to have kids. I think i would have teared up. A couple asked how the job was going. I just lied through my teeth and said it was fine. :bbneutral: Mark doesen't think i am lieing saying that because i do have a couple freelance things on the go. .. I spose....

Tonight Mark and i are going to chill out and be quiet. I really don't feel much like doing anything eles. I am really kinda bummed. The season premier of The Simpsons is on tonight. So.... i will have to check that out. Then. Bed earlier because i am sooo tired and sleeping is the best escape from everything i have right now.

StaceyMc

09-11-2006, 10:36 AM

Jenn, I am sending you huge hugs!! That's terrible that they let you go because they couldn't take the time to train you. My FH lost a job for the same reason and it hurt.

I think your idea of starting your own business is fab! Maybe this is the door opening that you needed! Your mom sounds really supportive and I'll bet Mark is supportive as well.

As for reading your journal for "crummy stuff", it's not crummy stuff, it's what is going on in your life right now. Life is not all roses and sunshine, it's full of struggles and heartache. It always helps to have someone to tell or somewhere to vent.

You'll be in my thoughts.

WhiskeyGirl

09-11-2006, 03:21 PM

Jenn!!!

I'm super sorry I haven't been around to lend you support through this all Sweet Pea! I'm sorry to hear that your new employers was just as stupid as the last! They have let go a girl with amazing talents, a wonderful heart and a beautiful person!! I'm sorry Sweet Pea!!

As far as writing about the crummy stuff, don't worry about it! I do it too, remember. And for me it really helps to get my feelings out and have an outside opinion come in on them!! Don't worry one bit Sweet Pea, if anyone doesn't want to read, no one is forcing them Right!?

I'm keeping you in my thoughts!! Good luck this Friday!! Take care, big hugs to you!! Love ya Hun!

Jenn060306

09-12-2006, 01:00 PM

Thanks Stacey and Shawna.
I didn't touch my computer all day yesterday. I wanted to spend all my time with Mark. He was off and obviously i was off as well. We slept in. Then went down to Ikea in Toronto to get our new bed. It is AWSOME! We had lunch and just chilled out. Mark had to quickly drag me through the Kids section. "There is nothing we need here" he said. I think he knew i would get really bummed out if i stayed there too long. But there are a couple things i want to get. They have this big green leaf canopy. I want to get it and put it away until we get our own baby. We picked up all the peices for the bed and the new shelves for the ktichen and headed home. Almost home Mark discovers they've either over charged us or we've picked up the wrong item. We ended up not getting the mid-beam. :irked: So we had to drive back down to the City and return the side bars for another bed and get the right one. It took Mark about 10 minutes to put in the mid beam and all the slats and get it finished. He put most of the bed together in the afternoon before we left to go back. It was fantastic.

Mark and i had a good talk about everything. He wants to get involved in Scouting again. His whole family is huge into it. He's thinking he'll become a Beaver leader because that's what i was before and i am trainned in. He doesen't want to take the one night a week we have together and go out. I agree.... I can not stand the idea of him doing that. But. I am not really prepared to be a leader for a bunch of super cute 5 year olds and then get told i will have alot of problems having kids, or not be able to at all. I don't think i can handle that.
We are going to look into adoption if the Dr. doesen't give us good news. I know it takes alot of time to get through all the applications and interviews and such. So if we get it started sooner then later it would good. But.... i want to get the info from the dr first to see how much hope we actually have.

So... with the job ****. I am trying to be positive. I am hoping that i can get some more freelance and contract stuff so i can work from home. My mom's friend sent me a link to someone she knows in the industry. I am going to spend some time this afternoon sending out resumes. Maybe i will have more luck working in Toronto at a firm. I am a bit tired of all the local ****. They really don't seem to be respondsible employers. Tonight i am going to get my act together on my portfolio web page and get that going. Then get some stuff up for my staionary and wedding related design. I had some great feedback on my designs for the baby shower invites. Maybe i will get some Christmas card ideas going too.... i could sell some to friends and family. Hmm....

Anyways... I am counting down the days until i see the Dr's. 3 days till dervatis. 13 days until tripathy. The TTC forum will be fantastic if/when it goes up. I know i am not alone in these troubles so having a great little support group will be nice.

Jenn060306

09-12-2006, 09:03 PM

Today i am trying to keep myself well entertained so i won't think about everything going on. I started on some ideas for Christmas cards and cards i need/want to make for the wedding showers and weddings i am going to in the next couple months.
Tonight i made a post card for Mark....

http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Design%20Ideas/Iloveyoumorethan-1.jpg

I am such a dork. :grinhappy:

Jenn060306

09-13-2006, 09:33 AM

I've got Mark at home today. It's nice to have him here. But i don't like why he is home. Monday he back was starting to get sore. Yesterday night he came home and he was REALLY bad. He said he drove straight to work because he really couldn't stand to carry his guitar over from his sisters where he normally parks. (it's about a 2 min walk down the street) His boss saw him get out of the car and totally freaked. He is really stiff and can hardly bend over. This morning he sat up in bed and realized how much that hurt. So i am going to take him to the dr. this morning. See if they will give him somthing for the pain.
We've already got him in to see the Chiropractor but he won't touch him until he gets X-Rays because they think he may have a pinched nerve somewhere between his neck and fingers because he gets numbness and tingelies. Not so good. :( Darren (our chiropractor) is a bit freaked about it because this all affects his lively-hood. He needs to not have back pain because he teaches guitar. But also he can not afford to loose feeling in his fingers because then he would have even more problems teaching guitar or even doing computer programming.
I'm very worried about him. I can't afford to loose him or have him off work for a long time now because then we'll be in bigger trouble.

Jenn060306

09-14-2006, 01:51 AM

Well.... The Dr. gave Mark some good pain killers and he spent the day at home with me. It was nice to have him home although i don't like why he was home.
I spent most of my day working on finding a job. I sent out about a dozen or more resumes. I was totally shocked to have received an e-mail back from one within 10 mintues of sending it. They requested to see some samples of my work and send them my salary expectations. That was exsiting! So i had to pull together some of my work and post it online. I now have a web page for my portfolio. I plan on updating it as much as possible and making it nicer and fancier as i have time. But here it is if you wish to check it out. http://www.sweetlinedesigns.ca/jennifer.html I have 2 broken links and i am not sure why they are broken right now. So i will have to consult Mark about it in the morning. I have never been totally confident in my Web Design. But Mar is a guru so to say.
I'm hoping Mark is feeling better tommorrow. He was in alot of pain today and was stashed out on the sofa most of the day. Poor guy. No fun i tell you!

I was feeling pretty crummy earlier today when i realized how badly i messed up my bills last month. Some how i missed the payment on about half of them. :bbredface: I was able to get them all taken care of today. But man.... it will be tight this month. Hopefully some freelance work will come through or i will get good news on a new job. sigh. Trying to remain positive. But i seriously have moments of complete and utter depression. It makes me so upset that i am so upset about it all and feeling like such a failure. It's like i have absolutely no control over my body and emotions.

Anyways.... i should get to sleep soon. It's almost 2am and i have been hear at my computer for nearly 2 hours straight now. That is REALLY not so good for anyone! Plus! The sooner i sleep the sooner it will be tommorrow and the sooner it will be until i see specialist #1 and Hopefully (fingers crossed) get news on what is happening with my stomic to make it so upset and sore all the time. After friday i will only have 10 more days until i see the specialist about the cysts and hopefully find out if they will remove it or not. I really hate waiting for answers! I think the un-known is stressing me out beyond all belief right now.

Jenn060306

09-14-2006, 09:53 AM

This morning i woke up a bit early. I found Mark already up and dressed. I thought it was because he had an appointment to get his back X-Rayed for the chiropractor. Apperently he completely forgot about going, but he was up because he was awake anyways. He apperently had been up most of the morning being sick. Not so cool. I feel a bit bad that i slept through it. But... at the same point. How well would i have handled in being sick?! Plus there isn't alot i can do for him.
I wanted him to stay home again today. He is really hurting. But he won't because he stayed home yesterday. But today he won't take the pain pills the Dr. recomended because they make him sleepy and dizzy. I dunno what to do. I know he will be well taken care of at work. Thea (his bosses wife) is good and getting him to take care of himself. I don't know how she does it. I tell him one thing and he says he's ok. She tells him the same thing and its a good idea. lol. I guess its a motherly thing.
So today i will have to wait and wonder if he's going to make it all day or not. I'm thinking no and Thea will make him lay down on the sofa in the living room for a while before he starts teaching at 3pm.

countrygirl

09-14-2006, 06:56 PM

Hey Jenn, sorry to hear that Mark isn't feeling so well. J is the same way though. He doesn't like to take what the Dr rx's him, and he just goes thru his day.

I hope he feels better!!!

Jenn060306

09-14-2006, 07:02 PM

So Mark came home. He didn't go to work today. He had this look of 'i've been sick' when he came in. Poor guy. He came home and curled back in bed while i went out to do some errands. One was to drop off his X-Rays to the chiropractor. I asked if he could possibly see Mark today because he has been home for the past 2 days in agony. So i brought him back later in the afternoon. We had a look at his X-Rays. Somewhat scarey honestly!
His hips are not balanced so we will have to get him orthotics with a slight lift on one side. That should help to straighten out part of his spine which is pretty good but there are a couple vertabrys that are out or alignment. Then.... oh my i nearly cried when they put up his neck X-Rays. Darren put them up and asked me what i thought. OMG was all i could say. You know how sometimes you are so shocked you pull your hands up to your face. Well that's what i did. You neck is supposed to have a nice gentle curve kinda like this ( but his neck was kinda straight and slightly curved the wrong way. :bbeek: No wonder he has been hurting. So. He adjusted Mar and is going to set up a treatment plan for him. He wants to see him 3 times a week. So we have got to get our medical insurance info to them on Monday so we can make the claims. $33 per visit is going to add up really quickly. But if it helps him feel better then i want to do it. Money well worth spent IMO.

Anyways..... that's pretty much been my day. That and fighting with the trash outside. There are 3 cans. Only one is full. The one at the front so its super heavy and difficult for me to pull out. Then the other one was half filled with rain water. So i am going to request to the landlord that he put drain holes in the cans. Firstly so i drains and isn't so heavy and secondly to keep mosquitos from breeding. Ugh! It's going to be into the 30's on the weekend and they thrive on that stuff! Cases of West Nile are up this year i have heard. I don't want to be breeding it on the front porch.

Jenn060306

09-16-2006, 05:21 PM

Ok.... I am trying to apply for my marriage certificate. I have to send away 3 months after the wedding for the 'long form' certificate. This is the only way i can have my name changed on my drivers licence. I put it in the mail on the 3rd. And yesterday it came back to me. They have changed the form. :irked: So i'm trying to fill out this form that they sent me and i'm confused. And it's saying it will take 6-8 weeks to send it. But that i can get it faster if i apply online. So i go and try to apply online. And the stupid thing will not allow me put in our home phone number. GRRRR! So now i don't know what to do. The form didn't even have an option for what i needed when it asked why i was applying for the certificate. I'm beginning to wonder if i need to have this certificate any longer. Last summer my MiL didn't need it. The certificate that she got from the miniter was fine. She had her name completely changed within 2 weeks of the wedding.
I am very fustrated by this all. the MTO is the only people who will not allow me to change my name. My health card now says my new name. All my banking information etc. But not my stupid drivers licence. So if i need to present I.D. if i was writing a cheque or 2 forms of I.D. i wouldn't have anything that matched my licence which is the preferred form if I.D. here.
I guess i will have to wait until Monday and call down and ask what i am supposed to do now. I could go to the office. But that's right down town Toronto. And i'm not really up for Government offices right at this time.

AngelinLove

09-16-2006, 11:33 PM

Jenn060306

09-17-2006, 02:21 AM

Your mailbox is full hun, so I thought I would post my message here...I hope that that is okay!!!

I just wanted to thank you for the very thoughtful card hun. You are such a sweetheart!!! Even after everything you have been going through...you found the time to think about me on my special day. It was nice to come home and find it in the mailbox. Thanks so much and I truly hope that things get better for you soon sweetie. You will be in my thoughts!!!!

Hey No troubles. I thought you would enjoy it. I hope you don't mind. I hope your wedding went well! Looking forward to reading about it!

I will clean up my mail box too. I didn't realize it was so full. :bbredface:

Jenn060306

09-18-2006, 01:18 AM

This weekend has been a little weird for me. Saturday i felt miserable and pretty much hung arround in my jammies all day. No fun. Well. it was nice. but i wish it had been under better circumstances. I was having some serious pain, and just generally feeling pretty down in the mouse. We were talking about going to Toronto to see the John Mayer concert in Dundas Square. However, the concert ended up only being from 4-6pm and Mark wouldn't be home until 530pm.
This morning we both slept in till 11am. Mark was planning on going to mass. But i guess he didn't set his alarm. I think it's better that he got some sleep anyways. I think he is still not feeling so well from last week. So we were trying to just have some quiet time together. But a guy from work kept calling because he couldn't figure out how to set up the computer for his live show on the radio station. It really pissed me off that he was calling because i knew that his brothers and dad were upstairs and would have been more help being there then Mark was over the phone. All he can do is say where the wires should be plugged into. I think he was fishing for Mark to offer to come up and help him. Mark finally turned off his cell. I suggested maybe he make a comment like 'Sorry i couldn't help you more over the phone on Sunday...' infront of his boss. I know his boss would tell his son that calling Mark on a Sunday is REALLY not cool. As it is. Mark works 53hrs a week. He needs his time at home with me and to catch up on his sleep. I am so glad his boss is really good about everything and acknowledges how much time he spends there. They are going to be doing some renovations at the music store and Mar has already been told he won't be given more hours to get those reno's done. The other guys are going to have to step up.
Mark's Mom and Step dad came by today. They brought us a wedding gift. We got a set of TV tables. They are pretty nice. Handy :grinhappy: I told my mom and she was all disapointed because that is what she had bought us for Christmas this year. lol. Oh well. It was nice to has MiL and SFiL come by. They had never seen our new place yet. I would have liked them to come sooner. But they are really involved in Scouting. Sometimes it feels like Mark and i are last on the list of priorities. I somtimes feel like i am totally not apart of the family and never will be. they asked how the new job was going. I felt like a complete idiot telling them i was let go. They understood and said it wasn't the end of the world. I know that. But i am just so tired of it all.
It would be really nice if there was only one thing happening right now what wasn't so plesant. I feel sick to my stomic most days. Nausia and me are REAL tight. I am constently tired. I can't seem to catch up on my sleep. The pain can be so bad that i just want to crawl into a little ball. I can not wait until i see the next specialist next week. Hopefully they will give me somthing to manage the pain a little better and also be able to give me more answers about what is is going on. And about our chances of having a a family.
I really hate feeling this way. I feel kinda stupid for being all depressed and 'Woe is me' I don't feel that way. But i do feel that way. I just want to kick it and move on.

WhiskeyGirl

09-18-2006, 05:19 PM

Jenn060306

09-19-2006, 01:48 AM

Jenn

I know the feeling Hun! The woe is me c r a p starts to feel so old but what or how can we get around it when all this annoying sh!t keeps happening to us! I got your letter today!! Thank you! There is one in the mail coming right back to you Sweet Pea!! I think what the two of us shoudl remember is that here we have the support of wonderful caring Ladies and we should know that it's ok to lean on each other!! Love ya Hun!! I hope things start to fall into place for you, and good luck with your doc's appointment!!!

Thanks Shawna! I'm hoping that getting out and doing more will help me feel better. Thursday i start Yoga with my mom. Looking forward to it! I'm hoping it won't cause me too much pain. I don't think it will. I just don't want my guts to get all stirred up. You know?!
I totally love having all these great woman here that i can talk to. I am really looking forward to the TTC forum opening so i can have a space to talk with others who may have been through all this before. Plus i can imagine all the support and love there. :grinhappy:
I am counting the days it seems till my next Dr. Appointment. I am soo nervous about what they are going to tell me. I swear if they don't have any answers and are as clueless as the last Dr. I will be severly disapointed! At this point i don't care if it is bad news. As long as it is news of some sort!

Jenn060306

09-20-2006, 07:22 PM

Ok, so as you all know. I've been feeling a little crummy lately. So i've been looking for things to entertain me and make me feel better. Today Kacie started the threads to post pic's of your in-laws and FH/DH. So i got into looking at the pictures again. And uploading them. I didn't realize how few i had up loaded. So i thought i would share some more from the professional photographers. Then i actually just now looked at all the pic's from the disposable cameras that one of the GM scanned for us when he was making the video.

Anyways.... here goes.

Us. This one we really like.
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Wedding%20Photos/DSC_6658_RT.jpg

Leaving the church
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Wedding%20Photos/WDG_0283.jpg
"Oooooh Bubbles!"

http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Wedding%20Photos/WDG_0285.jpg
"eewww Rain!"

A toast!
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Wedding%20Photos/WDG_0330.jpg
"Hurray! We made it!"

Jenn060306

09-20-2006, 07:24 PM

http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Wedding%20Photos/WDG_0357.jpg
Ted E. Bear. The coolest ring bear ever. LMAO! 3 year olds are fun!

http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Wedding%20Photos/WDG_0403.jpg
My feet hurt. Are we done yet?
Ok.... i've told it to rotate in photobucket and it won't. GRRRR!

http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c94/jenn060306/Wedding%20Photos/DSC_6696.jpg
My neice and nephue..... so cute!

Jenn060306

09-20-2006, 07:29 PM

This is one of my favourite from the church. I love the prespective and that it shows how beautiful the church is
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The ressecional

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Us with Father Jim and Father Steve. Father Jim was Mark's H/S preist. Father Steve was the priest at the church for a couple years. He was transfered 3 weeks after the wedding :sob:

Jenn060306

09-20-2006, 07:33 PM

Now to the Reception

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The head table.
L-R Elizabeth, Dan, Kim, John, Me, Mark, Ashley, Tyler, Laura

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Sharing a kiss before dinner

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Boquet toss.... No fights broke out! But the girl who caught it (she's in the green and yellow dress) has 3 older brothers and about 4 more there by realtionship. They started chanting "Give it back" pooor girl. lol!

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Let's boogie! The dance floor was this busy at 1230am when they gave us the boot!

mariaandmanish

09-20-2006, 07:37 PM

These are great pics, Jenn! I especially love the one of the two of you kissing at the head table! Keep them coming!

MOB Karen

09-20-2006, 08:20 PM

What great pictures, Jenn!!! I'm so glad that you realized we hadn't seen them!!! I'm so glad we didn't miss seeing them!!! Your church is just beautiful!!! I'm ready for more!!! :D

Jenn060306

09-21-2006, 12:26 AM

I thought i had posted pics. I guess i didn't. Hmmm.... very strange. I decided i would look through my journal tonight. See what's happend in the last couple months. Kinda alot. I was really surprised by it. Also, i knew i haven't been feeling well for a while. But when i was reading some of the things i had posted about not feeling well before i was a little shocked at how much its progressed with nothing changing. It's very fustrating.
I keep thinking about what questions i have for Monday. But i still am not sure what they will be until i know what they want to do. I guess there are a couple senario's. This is what i am thinking right now.

1) Do i have a chance of the cysts disapering on their own?
2) No? What will you do to treat them? Surgery?
3) What other options are there besides surgery?
4) What possible complications are there with surgery?
5) Do you know now or will you find out then if you can save the ovarie?
6) How will being short an ovary affect my chances or having a family?
7) What is the typical receovery time on surgery?
8) Will you check for other problems while you're in there?
9) What caused this?
10) BCP is commonly used to treat this. How come i have it if i've been using it for regulation for the past few years?
11) How long do cysts usually take to get this size?

mmm.... That's all i can think of right now. If anyone has any other ideas on things i should ask your imput is greatly appreciated! :grinhappy:

Jenn060306

09-21-2006, 01:00 AM

Okie Dokie....
Here are some more pic's.
I'm starting with the day of prep.

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Wedding Stu. Start with boiling water, ad 1 bride and 2 bridesmaids.

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Breakfast of champions. At first i thought this was wedding day. But i remember now. It was pouring rain so there was no way we ate outside. This must have been taken on the 2nd. hmmmm.

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Getting my hair done.

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We decided to do our own make up. My mom has a massive bathroom so we all crowded in there to get ready.

Jenn060306

09-21-2006, 01:05 AM

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I forgot my garter.

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All the girls and my dad on the stairs before leaving my mom's house

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My last trip down the stairs as a single woman!

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My beautiful Mom

Jenn060306

09-21-2006, 01:08 AM

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The bridesmaids flowers

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Me. ready to roll!

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Owen telling Dan how it is done!

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Ashley and Kim

Jenn060306

09-21-2006, 01:11 AM

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Me and my dad

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My dad passing me off to Mark

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Exchanging Vowes

Jenn060306

09-21-2006, 01:13 AM

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More exchanging vowes

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Our kiss!

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My Calgary Mom doing a reading for us.

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Talking while we wait to sign the registry

Jenn060306

09-21-2006, 01:15 AM

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The rose ceramony

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Ack! Out of order! lol! Mark's first glimps!

Jenn060306

09-21-2006, 01:18 AM

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The musicians. The Connors Family.

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Our recessional

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This is one of my fave candid shots

Jenn060306

09-21-2006, 01:20 AM

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Mark's "Woooh Whooo I'm married" look!
Oh so cute! :wub:

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Everyone in the limo

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Mark's exsited about the champaign!

Jenn060306

09-21-2006, 01:22 AM

Ok.... that's it for tonight. I may post more tommorrow depending on what happends. Lots to do since i am going to Windsor for the weekend. If not. Monday or Tuesday.

Thanks for checking them out. :grinhappy: I am having alot of fun going through them all again and posting pics.

Valmai

09-21-2006, 06:30 AM

They are all gorgeous Jen, its lovely to see them you look like u really enjoyed! xxx

Jenn060306

09-21-2006, 02:54 PM

I know i said i was going to post weird pic's of things i come across. I've been off in la-la land not posting them lately. so....

Here's Todays' Weird Pic.

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Maybe next time i will think twice about sending somthing air mail

AngelinLove

09-21-2006, 02:58 PM

Jenn060306

09-21-2006, 06:51 PM

Hey hun, when are you gonna be in Windser, I told you we need to get together, I am just over the bridge...lol!!! Let me know what days you will be there and if you are planning on coming over to the US to shop!!! That would be really super cool to meet up!!!

Hey Angel, I totally forgot about that. We are leaving in the morning for Windsor. My mom and i are going to go to Detroit to do some shopping. Still trying to figure out where to go. I dunno if you are available at all tommorrow afternoon. I think we are meeting my aunt and cousins for dinner in Windsor tommorrow night. Then the shower one Sat in Leamington then we're heading home after so my mom can spend some time with my dad who has been in Dallas all week and i can see Mar.
Let me know. :bbmrgreen:

AngelinLove

09-21-2006, 07:20 PM

Jenn060306

09-21-2006, 10:35 PM

That sucks...it would have been really cool to get to meet you....well maybe when the wedding comes will have some time. I work tommorow until 5:30pm, os I am not available during the day. Well I hope that you have a great trip and get some good shopping in!!!

Sorry... the wedding comes? Do you mean Winter comes?!

Mark and i are talking about staying Sunday night after the wedding as well. So maybe we can get together for a coffee then. When i know if we are for sure or not i will let you know. :grinhappy:

AngelinLove

09-22-2006, 09:25 AM

I meant when the wedding comes. cause you are going to your cousins shower, which means that there will be a wedding to follow hun!!!

Jenn060306

09-24-2006, 02:20 PM

So my trip to Windsor/Detroit went well. Mom and i switched off driving. Took us about 4 hours to get from Newmarket to Windsor. We dropped off all our stuff at the hotel, had a late lunch and took the Ambassador bridge over. Our server was kinda dumb IMO. My mom asked if she does any shopping in the US and she said ya and told us which mall she liked and how to get there and such. But then told us that there are tons of muggings, car jackings, and shootings there. Which i know that there have been problems before in Detroit. But..... honestly. I was annoyed that she pointed that out. It was almost like she was trying to scare us into not going. Anyways.... we went and had a great time. Went to JoAnn's and i got paint. I was soooooo happy to see my brand of paint was so cheap there. It was cool. So i bought a bunch because its about half the price and with the exchange being so good. We went to Target which is always super fun! I :heart: Target. :grinhappy: I got myself a pair of Ugg knock off's for $19.99USD and some clothes for the wedding in a month. It was good.

We visited with my mom's bother and my cousins. It was nice except they talked alot about my aunt who isn't speaking to my family right now and how she's said she's coming to the wedding. I am at such a loss as to what to do or say to her if she does come. ARGH!

Today.... there is band practise at our place. Ya.... Mark and Dan are in the livingroom rockin out. The drums are sooooo loud. I can barely hear myself think. :bbeek: Oh well.... I am going to go out to the super market soon so i can have a little quiet time then.

Tommorrow is my Dr. Appointment! I am nervous but exsited because am going to get some news.

ikkin510

09-24-2006, 04:57 PM

I'm glad you had a good trip Jenn. Sorry about your aunt. I didn't realize she was still upset with your family, that is sad. I'm not sure what to tell you if you end up seeing her at the wedding. Maybe if she talks to you, be nice, and mention about missing her at your wedding, you wish she could have been there, and maybe ask if she wants to see pictures. Try to be nice and patch things up. Don't know if this will help at all, just an idea.

Good luck with the appointment tomorrow! I really hope they finally figure out and tell you what the probelm is. And that it's not serious and can be easily fixed. Good luck and keep us updated Hon!

Goin2thechapel

09-24-2006, 05:35 PM

Congratulations..So glad everything is wonderful!

october6

09-24-2006, 07:39 PM

question for u were did u get your wedding dress at.

Jenn060306

09-24-2006, 11:56 PM

question for u were did u get your wedding dress at.

My dress is a Maggie Sottero - Royal Monica.
I got it in a shop in Aurora, Ontario called Elmwood Brides. :grinhappy:

WhiskeyGirl

09-25-2006, 05:20 PM

Hey Jenn!!

I really hope today they give you better news and that things are an easy fix for you medically!! You are in my thoughts today Sweet Pea, hell you're in them everyday!!! ;) I have my big appointment in 8 days, Oct 3rd, my b-day as well!! Anyhow, if I keep my fingers crossed for you today will you do the same for me on my birthday!? I hope all goes well Sweet Heart!!

As far as your aunt, just be polite but don't give her too much! KWIM? Just like Nikki said, tell her you missed her alot at the wedding but maybe leave out how upset it made you feel Or, go ahead and tell her how much she hurt you! It;s all up to you really!! I hope all goes well for you in this situation as well!!! :)

Take care Hun!!

Shawna

ikkin510

09-25-2006, 06:19 PM

Jenn~ Hope everything went well today....I'll be checking often to see if you post anything. You are in my thoughts and prayers today!!!

Shawna~ Good luck with your appointment in a few days!!! Hopefully it will only be good news for you, I know you need some happiness right now!

AngelinLove

09-25-2006, 07:47 PM

Jenn, I hope that everything went good today at the Dr.'s!!! You are in my thoughts hun!!!

Jenn060306

09-25-2006, 09:54 PM

Thank you so much Shawna, Nikki and Angel.

Things went well today. I am happy to report that! I will be having surgery on October 5th. (In like 10 days) I really lucked out that she happend to have a cancelation for that day so i could be fit in then. Otherwise it would be weeks before i could have it. My appointment was originally booked for Oct 11th. So this is a real blessing.

My Doctor is really great! I am pleased with her! She really understood my situtation even before i said anything. She told me she will attempt to do the surgery lapriscopically (sp?) She'll deflate it then peel it away layer by layer. She described it like peeling a grape w/o squishing the grape. She doesen't want to just deflate it because it is more likely to return. She's also check out the right side. But she doubts she will take it out. It's not bothering me. She belives the left side is now close to 6cm. So it's grown pretty rapidly since July. She thinks it should be fine to keep the ovary. The only reason that she would take it is if there was uncontrolable bleeding. If she can't do it lapriscopically she will have to do full surgery which means i will be in the hospital for a couple days. The laproicopic should be day surgery. And about a week for recovering. There is no real restrictions on what i can do. Mostly just what i feel comfortable with.

So.... for the next week i will have a ton of Dr. appointments to go to. I'll have to meet with the Anistesialist (sp?), my family dr., and get blood work done. But if it means that i will soon wake up w/o pain. Then it is totally worth it!

Because it is on the 5th. It looks like we won't be going to the Cottage for Thanksgiving (Oct 7,8,9th). If we do it will be just for a day. But, MiL is thinking maybe we should just do it here in Newmarket. With us not being able to go really. my SiL has a wedding that her daughter is the flower girl in on the saturday. And the other SiL has to work all day Saturday. It might just be better off she's thinking. So, we'll see.

ikkin510

09-26-2006, 12:03 AM

O Jenn, I am so glad that the doctors appointment went well for you!!! That is great that they were able to move the date closer for ya. Hopefully this takes care of everything for you and you won't have to worry about it ever again! I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I know I will be busy that week, but I will make sure I put aside some time to stop in and check to see how everything went. Best of Luck will all the upcoming appointments and surgery, and again, I'm glad the visit went well today!!:hug:

Jenn060306

09-26-2006, 05:38 AM

Thanks Nikki!
Hopefully i will be home the same day or next day. That's the plan.
I am soooo looking forward to not having the pain. As i sit here wake and not sleeping. My side is poking at me saying "Hellloooo! Rememember me!" LOL. The pain is such an attention hog.
Ok. I'm really tired so i'm a bit goofy. But you know how you wake up in the middle of the night tossing and turning triing to get comfy and you can't. And as you toss you realize you are kiinda hungry so you get up for a drink and a handfull of cereal and suddenly you are wide away.

Yup..... that's me tonight.

Jenn060306

09-26-2006, 12:07 PM

Ack!!!

Part of my surgery prep i have to see my family Dr. to have her fill out the Pre-Op forms for me. But she's on holidays until the 10th of October. :snide: This means i have to go to the walk in clinic. I really don't like going there. It's always such a long wait and there are such germy people. I don;t want to be arround germies because if i get sick then i can't have the surgery. I think i am going to have to wait and go right at 9am one day this week. Before everyone eles gets there. :irked:
It's a bit fustrating because i will have to tell the doctor what to put down. Where my family dr. knows all about all my history. I hate having to explain what my past surgeries where and about all my messed up medical history. Ah well.... What eles can i do?

Today.... i plan to finish organizing my closet and sort through and re-fold all of Mar's clothes in the dresser. It's all messed up so i can not put anything away. It's very fustrating.
Other then that i am chillin at the computer and working on Christmas Card designs. Hopefully i will be able to get something done today so i can start putting together my portfolio and get into selling them.

WhiskeyGirl

09-26-2006, 04:50 PM

Jenn060306

09-26-2006, 05:15 PM

Thank god Jenn!! It sounds very similar to what my grandmother went through and she has 7 kids! lol. THere is hope for both or at least one of us yet!! Ya know that pain you have, well I'm starting to get similar things going on, but it's usually just a dull ache that won't go away. Is that how things started for you or was it full on pain from the start? I know things are going to work out for you Honey Bunch!! You deserve this, and you go GIRL!! :D Your surgery is 2 days after my birthday and my follow up appointment with the fertility clinic!! I will be thinking of you and keeping you in my thoughts!! Take care and take it easy when recovering! Love ya Hun!!!

Thanks Shawna....
The pain.... yeah it's pretty much a constent dull pain. Occassionally i feel nothing. But for the most part the left side of my stomic hurts from arround my pelvic bone and at times up to my ribs. It also is in my lower back as well. At times its a stabbing pain as well. The Dr. putting pressure on that area hurts like a :censored:
Some of the other symptoms i've had with it are nausea, dull ache in the lower back and my hip. I found this website which has some good info on it. You might want to check it out if you think that might be a problem for you. http://www.4woman.gov/faq/ovarian_cysts.htm

My Dr. really made me feel better about it all. I'm not so scared anymore it seems. I trust that she will do her absolute best to save the ovary and i'm sure she will be there to help us if she can't when we are ready to TTC. I am hoping this will be our only issue and i won't have more cysts grow and prevent me from getting pregnant.

You'll have to update me on how your appointment at the fertillity clinic goes before i have to go in to the hospital. Otherwise i will be laying there wondering about you.

WhiskeyGirl

09-26-2006, 05:30 PM

Jenn060306

09-26-2006, 05:53 PM

You bet I will keep you updated!! I will definately try my hardest to get online either on the 3rd or the 4th to let you know! I'm hoping my news is as good as yours and I won't go into a total tail spin as it usually does for me! I'm going to check out that site, thanks HUN!!! :D

ETA- Ok that site is so many of my symptoms! Maybe we're in the same boat! That is freaky man! I'm going to mention to my doctor about the pain I've been having lately!!

Yeah.... I was thinking that some of the symptoms fit you. I dunno though. I think it's worth asking about next time you are at the Dr. Hopefully you will get good news!

Ok.... and what does ETA actually stand for? I know its somthing to do with Editing the post. but yea... i'm dumb. lol!

WhiskeyGirl

09-26-2006, 05:59 PM

Jenn060306

09-27-2006, 12:33 AM

ETA is Edit to Add.

Yeah with AF being as much of a witch as she is it really makes me think and now with the pain! Hmmmm. I do have nausea from time to time and I always get lower back pain! Thank you Jenn, maybe by you having this problem it has brought it to my attention!! Sometimes we have these things happen to us to help others KWIM?

Well I'm off and running! You take care Sweet Pea!

I do know what you mean. In ways i hope that you have the same problem because it is fairly easy to fix and could be what's keeping you from getting pregnant. But at the same time i hope it's not because it's really not fun.
There was one point where i had was so sore and swollen and my belly felt so full all the time and i was nausious and tired i felt like what i had been told are the symptoms of pregnancy. I knew i wasn't because my Dr. had done all the blood tests the week before and there was nothing there. It is very fustrating to feel that way and know you're not pregnant. At least if i was there would be a reward at the end for all the crummy feeling days. lol.

Well, tonight i had a great chat w/ my SiL Kim. Mar was gunna stop by her house on the way to work to talk to her and let her know some of the details on what's happening. But i wasn't sure if he got a chance so i thought i would call before her husband came home and said 'Did you hear...' It was nice to talk to her because we really don't get to do that a whole lot at times.
I am feeling more and more better the last couple days. I really feel like there is hope for me. I was so depressed and stressed i really felt like this was all to much for me to handle. Plus i was really questioning why God would let this happen to me. And a bit angry with him because i felt like i was a joke to him. I've been asking for a sign that he is looking out for me and helping me through these rough times. I really feel like getting my appointment bumped up and there being a cancelation for the 5th that worked perfectly for me was really a blessing. :laugh:

I really feel like things are improving. I am feeling alot more positive and i am hoping for the best and being ready for the worst not concentrating on being ready for the worst. There is the possibility they may have to take the ovary. But it's really not worrying me because i trsut the dr and have faith in God' plan for me. Wow..... i feel so religous saying this. I'm really. But i am just very thankful for being able to have this all taken care of so soon.