Art and my life.

[CarlosHoney]

Something spectacular has happened, and I can feel the breeze, no, the winds of change blowing. Something has happened with us, and I'm really grateful to feel this. I haven't been posting much lately.. Mainly because there has been a sort of stagnation going on in my life. Something has been amiss, something has been completely wrong.

I've been feeling so out of place, so peculiar.. And I just haven't known how to identify it.. Well, I did tonight.

My FH has done the most moving and touching thing ever. We were sitting on the couch, and I was talking about maybe doing some part time babysitting to help a little with the finances. I'm also lowering my Minister fees. We're struggling right now, and I really want to be able to stay home with my baby boy..

Carlo asked me why I haven't done anything with my artwork. That I have so much talent, and that it doesn't make since to him why I haven't tried to get out there and sell it. I told him that I don't feel confident that anyone would buy it, and that I don't think I'm really that good.

"There are people out there making STUPID MONEY off of some REALLY STUPID ARTWORK. You have so much more talent than that. You just need to try and apply yourself, get some supplies, and make something special to you. Do you realy want to live this life? Watching other people's children? You're better than that, and I know that you can do it."

I almost cried. So, we're going to look at the Blue Star Art Space's Artist Quarters, and maybe renting a studio so that I can have shows. Tomorrow I'm going to hop on it. At the Artist Quarters we can rent a 2 or 3 bedroom apartment, and you can paint it however you want. The rent depends on how nice it is when you move in... and I have NO PROBLEM with getting some paint and fixing it up. I just would pee myself if I could have something other than white walls.

So, I'll let you know what I find out. If we can get a place it would be so wonderful. You can even hold shows in the Artist Quarters there. My plan would be to get a 3 bedroom.. One room will be the studio/guest room. My dad offered to help pay a portion of the rent for a 3 bedroom so that when he drives down he won't have to pay for food/lodging, and can come visit more often. I really can't wait!!

It's been a really big fear for Carlo and I to turn into typical american'ts. You know, the ones that can't do anything. They just get saddled with kids, a mortgage, and loose the joy in their lives. I mean, some people might like that.. Just not me. I want to express myself, and have a great time doing it. I want to live a free life, with no regrets, and no what-if's.

I feel a since of hope and newness.. Something is happening, and I'm glad for it.

[Jenn060306]

Carrie that sounds amazing! Your work you posted before was wonderful! You definatly have a gift and if you can have a chance to express it and share it with others i think that is the best thing ever!
Keep us posted on how it goes!

[StaceyMc]

I think it's wonderful that you are going to follow your dream and use your talent. Good luck!

[MOB Karen]

Good luck, Carrie! There's nothing worse than always wondering "what if?"

[CindySue]

Do whatever makes you happy Carrie. I hope you go far and from what I saw, you do have talent.
I may not have gotten to do all the things that I had planned to do in my life, but I dont have any regrets. I had to make different decisions when my circumstances changed. But there is a BIG difference between making the best of what you have and just giving up. And I honestly believe that my life is EXACTLY where GOD wants it to be! My dreams didnt get lost......they got better!
Good Luck!

[OctoberBride06]

Good Luck Carrie, make those dreams come true!!!!!!

[WebLady]

... It's been a really big fear for Carlo and I to turn into typical american'ts. You know, the ones that can't do anything. They just get saddled with kids, a mortgage, and loose the joy in their lives. I mean, some people might like that.. Just not me. I want to express myself, and have a great time doing it. I want to live a free life, with no regrets, and no what-if's.

I feel a since of hope and newness.. Something is happening, and I'm glad for it.

DH and I are the same way, we don't want to end up like our parents; trapped in a dead end job, bitter and unhappy with no hope for the future. We are working towards a better life.

It is great that you have a supportive FH too! I hope the best for you in your ventures as well!

[Kacie_bride]

Good luck Carrie and get to posting again. I've been wondering about you and missing you!

[CarlosHoney]

Thanks guys!! Yeah, Cindy, not everyone nessecarily hates their lives. We're just not that kind of people. We're artistic.. Expressive... Different than your average bear.

I'm going to try and make some space in my life. Right now things are eyeball deep. I've got lots on my plate.

[WhiskeyGirl]

I wish you all the best Carrie in pursuing your dreams!!!!

[CarlosHoney]

Thanks Shawna.

I talked to the guy that runs the leasing there, and told him what I was looking for. As soon as something is avalable, he's going to call us. This have worked out so perfectly, since we are on a month to month with this Apartment. We just have to move by January. It's going to be so awesome!!

I already have lots of ideas about what I want to do with the place. I'm going to use the paper lanterns from the wedding to hang up over the living room. It's a loft, so I'll bet that there will be space above the living room. I'm going to look at making some of those folding screens, since it's a studio and there aren't any walls, persay. I'm going to make some curtains to divide 'rooms' and if need be, we can put in washer and dryer connections on our own. Carlo knows a plumber who would do it for a very reasonable rate.

I'm just so psyched!! I'm going to be living DOWNTOWN! I've always wanted to live downtown. By living there, we won't need a second car. Everything is within a trolley ride, or it's walking distance. This is the nicer area of town, too. You just have no idea how psyched I am!!

[WebLady]

Sounds great Carrie! I am sure it will be wonderful!

[usahgrad]

Wow Carrie; it all sounds so incredible! Good luck with your endeavors and someday I'll be trotting round an art museum and someone will say "This is an original Carrie piece" or whatever art people say, and I'll say, "Hey! I knew her when she was just getting started!"

[brewsells]

I am so excited for you Carrie! I wish you the best of luck with everything. It's nice to live in the city and have everything so close. I wish we had trolleys here!