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[rainbowtreat]

Well the day has been a roler coater of emotions. Just as I was leaving work, happy to have had a 1/2 day because I have to work Saturday. Which I do not have a sitter for. Nicholas has to work it too and he usualy keeps them for me. But that is another stress to deal with. My mom called, she enver calls my work unless somethign is up. She had called Easter ngiht to let me know how my grandfather was doing. He was not doing good and I was told the next time she calls I will know why. Well when I saw a Maine area code on the phone I was wondering what ws up. Her and my sister had spent the ngiht with my grampie last night and he passed away this morning. They are planning a huge Chathlic Mass for him within the next few days. I am waiting on details. Not sure how I am going to get out of work and I think my mom said something about my BIL sending me money so I can make it home. But then in May they are planning a grave side service for him. I cant afford to go home for both. I cant realy afford to go at all, we just sunk $500 of our wedding money into Nicholas' truck.

Once I get my son and go get my daughter set up in her new school for when we finaly get to the new apartment I get home to the phoen ringing. It was the apartment manager. She said that after a couple more hours of cleaning the apartment is ready to move in. It depends if once I meet with her and look at the place and if I see anything that I feel should be fixed before moving in. She said it looks great as it is but she could do more if I wanted. I will meet with her one night this week and then I can start slowly moving things in next Monday if I wish. She is giving us that week to move in and take our time. She doenst expect rent for that one week. We owe our first months rent on the 1st. Which we have set aside thank god.

And to top it all off Nicholas has had to go to Mass. for the day with his boss and another person from work. He wont be home untill 9 at the earliest. I have no one to talk to about it all.

I did have the time to stop off and see my freind who is on bed rest. She had an appointment for an ultrasound today. ( after my visit ) Cross your fingers that the blood sack has gone away. If nto it is a wait and see game if she can be in the wedding. She wont even be able to be there if this is not gone by the end of May.

I need about $600 more to finish this wedding and I just dont have it. Not with the other bills adding up.

I feel like crying over it all and I dont have Nicholas here right now an dI need him. I am at the point of rambleing on so I will stop this post here, go fix dinner for the kids. I know its late but I just have not been motivated and they havent bugged me to eat yet lol. I need to eat something myself I guess.

You know I work hard and so does Nicholas but ever single time we feel life is going soe what easy it gets screwed up some how. I am tired of it and I just want to get through the next month and a half and know that we will be bale to do this. OK I am off now. Thanks for listening.

[Jenn060306]

Oh Gwen i am so sorry that your grandfather passed away. :hug:
It must be terrible knowing you won't be able to attend the mass and the burial. I couldn't imagine not being able to go. I wish i could help you.

I'm sorry that things are so tight for you guys. I'm sure they will all work out in the end. You're wedding will be beautiful no matter what!
It's good that the landlord is so good about making sure the new apartment is clean and all fixed up for you. Hopefully moving will go well for you and Nicholas

It makes me crazy when all these terrible things happen to really good people who go out of their way to help others and do good things. I wish you my deepest condolances in loosing your grandfather. You and your family are in my prayers.

Take care.... have a nice bubbly bath after the kids go to bed.

[tha_mrs]

Okay Gwen, while I was going through a message was given to me...I want to share it with you.
"Trust me, in this place". In this song I found out God was preparing me for something great and he was doing so by putting me in a place where I couldn't do anything but get on my knees. In this message God says that right now I am going to put you in an uncomfortable place. I am going to put my hands under you instead of around you and somethings are going to get hard. Mountains in your life are going to get high and your heart will be heavy. But trust me in this place. Cast your cares upon me,for I care for you.
God says if and when you trust me you will began to see that if you use your faith, then you can stand on my promise that I will deliver. If you and your FH pray together I am most confident that God will come in the midst. Another message that has helped me is Habakkuk 2:2-3. If there is a plan you want to see come true for your life and if it be in the will of God,write it down on paper and fold it and stick in the above scripture and meditate on it in the will of God and if it is in his will it will come to pass. When you are a child of the king, you are royalty,so believe that and go on in faith.I will be praying for your family and I am sorry about your loss.

[WhiskeyGirl]

Gwen!

I'm sorry your Grandfather passed away! I wish you and your family my deepest condolences!! Take care, I hope everything will fall into place for the wedding. Again take care and from the bottom of my heart I am sorry!!

Shawna

[Kacie_bride]

I am so sorry about your grandfather. I know how you must feel. Unfortantely I only have 1 living grandparent and she is not doing so well herself. She is 91 years old and has been in and out of the hospital lately. I know her days are coming to an end soon. It is hard. I know. Again, my condolences.

[andysgirl07]

I'm sorry to hear about your grandpa, Gwen. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. I know everything will work out - maybe something good will happen and you'll get to go to both services. :hug:

[Teribridetobe]

I am really sorry to hear about your grandpa. I know things will work out for you. Keep your chin up! I will keep you in my thoughts! Take care of yourself:hug:

[brewsells]

I am so sorry to hear about your Grandfather, Gwen. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. :hug:If you need anything, remember that we are here.

[ikkin510]

Gwen,
I'm so sorry to hear about your grandfather passing away. You said your BIL may be able to send you money to go to one service, right? At least you will get to go back for one event. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. I hope all is well with your friend and the baby too.
It is good news about the apartment though. Try to look at that bright side when things look really gloomy. I know thats hard, but remember. Once you get through all the trials, there is always something good that comes along too. I can think of one for you in 1 month and 21 days.
Again, I'm sorry about your grandfather. Let us know if there is ANYTHING you need.:hug:

[StaceyMc]

I am sorry to hear about your grandfather. Please accept my condolences. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

[CindySue]

Gwen....Im sooooo sorry to hear about your grandfather. You and your family are in my prayers.
On the mass and burial......which would be more important to you on attending? I know its a hard decision to make.....but maybe talking to Nicholas with help.
Glad to here about the apartment though. Letting you move in slowly will definitely help make the move easier!
Keep your head up girl!

[MOB Karen]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my Dad (Amber's grandpa) in 2001, and I know how devastating that is to a family. My prayers are with you and your family!

[rainbowtreat]

Thank you all for all your kind words. I was on the phone alot today when I was not busy at work. I talked with my boss for about a half hour this morning and she helped me figure a few thigns out. I have to keep her posted as too when the services are so we can see what we can do with the schedules. She also has helped me alot with getting my daughter settled in her new school and getting out early the night of her concert in her old school so I can be sure she gets to attend that. She also mentioned about somethign I didnt even think of. On the accounts at the bank I work at we have what we call Bounce Protection. It is a limit of funds available in case you dont have the funds to fully cover a check that comes in. On the basic accounts it is $300. The reson behind this is that some time people over draw their accounts by accident. If the check gets sent back you end up with fees from the bank as well as the person or business that was trying to cash it. Then they tend to send it through a second time and sometimes a 3rd time and all the while you are paying the fees. This way we pay the check for you and you owe what ever it was you were short on as well as the $25 fee for using this bouce protection. I know we will be getting money for the wedding. Nicholas' Nana has already asked if we need anything and he said not realy so she said so money will do then. I can write the $250 check and as soon as I get home deposit my money I get as gifts and the DJ is covered. That was a long explanation and I am sorry but wanted to let ya know what I ment. I go next Thrusday and take my daughter on a tour of her new school while the kids are all on vacation. And the first day she goes I am going into work late to help her get settled. I am waiting on the dates of my grampies services. I will figure somethign out there. We went and looked at the apartment again tonight after work. I can not wiat to get in there. The apartment manager said that we could start moving in this weekend. I figure we might be all moved in my mid week next week. So if you dont see me around much it is because we have ALOT to get done. One of the first things I want to get up and running is my computer int he new place. So when I need a break I can jump on here. It is going to be a long couple of weeks. Nicholas has to work alot of extra hours so most of this move falls on me. I dont care as long as I get in there. OK I have rambled on enough and I should realy eat and get some of this stuff taken care of tonight. I also have to find some one to take my kids for 4 hours on Saturday while I work. Any one busy? lol Again thank you all for all the kind words. I mean it. It means alot that you all care enough to respond. I will post to let ya know when I am taking down the pc ( that will be the last thing to go lol ).

[usahgrad]

Gwen, I'm glad to hear that the money issues have slightly momentarily subsided; I know how disappearing money feels and how frustrating it can be!

I'm also sorry to hear about your grandpa. My only grandfather passed away when I was seven and I cried for days about it. Hopefully Nicholas gave you lots of hugs when he finally got home last night...but just in case *hugs*.

Glad to hear about getting to move in earlier; I know how excited you are about that!

Here's to rolling with the punches! You're doing a great job!

[WebLady]

Terribly sorry to hear of the loss of your 'grampie' :hug:

Glad to hear about your new apartment and that the other things are looking up.

Best wishes!