Do i need help?

[Jenn060306]

Ok, So i don't want to sound like i am whining or anything. But i really feel like i need to talk about this because it's really bothering me.
Today i woke up and i really didn't want to face the world. So i just laid there is bed watching the Price is Right before i fell back asleep. Now i know that i have lots of things i could be doing like my homework, making place cards, putting together thank you notes, cleaning my apartment, doing the laundry so on so forth. But i can't get it together.

Ever since the faculty strike started i haven't been motivated in anyway what so ever. I know i work better when i have alot going on. I'm better at managing my time and getting down to work. I have two projects on the go that i have barely touched in the 2 weeks i have been off school. I can't figure out why. I love what i'm doing. I really enjoy drawing and everything. Or use to it seems.

I'm wondering if part of this is because i haven't seen Mark alot lately. He works alot of hours. And this month he's been busy doing other things like going to the cottage wth the boys, or doing some extra stuff arround the store, and with his family. I feel like any time we've made plans to go do somthing he's inviting our friend Tyler along. Not that i don't want Tyler to come. Just..... it would be great to sit in a nice restraunt listening to a great band and enjoying my time with him. Today he's out with his dad and i'm not sure when he will be home. Probaly not until late.

I don't know what to do. I know i can't continue feeling like this. It's really not very good for me, and i feel really crummy because i can't get anything done. It's a vicious circle. I wonder if i need to get out and talk to a professional about what's going on. I know i have alot on my plate with school being all screwed up now, finding a job and not knowing what is going to happen with it, moving, and planning the wedding. I don't think i know how to manage it all.

[CindySue]

Jenn....it sounds like you may be depressed just a little. You are used to running around 90 miles an hour and now that youre not, youre not handling it very good. Brian is the same way. Hes not going to slow down until it kills him. If he doesnt have a least 50 things to do, he borderlines on impossible.
JMO - but I think with you not knowing whats going to happen with school is affecting you too - ALOT!!
It WILL get better, Im sure of it. Have to sat down with Mark and told him about all this? Maybe that will help too.
Good Luck Sweetie :hug:

[LaceyinPgh]

Well I am a big proponent of getting help if you think that you need it. It never hurts to go in and see what a professional on the matter says. But I caution you about any doctor that will just put you on a pill without doing a body chemistry workup to check your hormone and chemical levels and then still doesn't send you to talk to a therapist. I also will say this. don't pin your happiness on if Mark is around. If he isn't there for a stretch that doesn't mean that you have to stop living your life just because you miss him. There are months at a stretch where I Sean is home less than he is traveling. I just go about my daily tasks. Those are the times I make plans to do what I want to do without worrying about him interfereing with it. Try to do that too.

[Jenn060306]

I really try not to rely on Mark. I know how his job is. I know that it will always be like this. He does make me feel a bit better to have him home.
But honestly i think this has very little to do with him. More to do with my current situation. I know i need to get out and do more, unfortunetly i can't really afford to take a class or somthing that i would really like to do. Once things get back on track for school i will be back to my usual swamped self.

I talked to Mark tonight, we're not sure that jumping to seeing someone is the best bet for me right now. I am going to try and set some more deadlines for myself to try and get myself moving while i'm out of class. I am going to try and make tasks for each day this week then go from there. With next week. Since the faculty and management are talking again i am really hoping that this means it will be the last week i'm off.

[CindySue]

Yeah....that sounds good. Have a calendar and each day have a list of things you ARE GOING to get done that day. We have to do that when we get into a slump around here. Hey, I have another idea......do you exercise? A short little excerise routine can definitely lift your spirits and boost your energy - plus help tone up if you need to for the wedding. Also, writing your thoughts and stresses into a journal could help. Youre getting them "out" without actually "sharing" - does that make sense? I have one and dont use it very often, but it definitely comes in handy when I have so much going on inside my head I feel like Im going to explode.
Best of Luck GIrl......It will work out!

[ikkin510]

Jenn,
I agree with Cindy on the journal and the exercising. I do both of them from time to time and it really does help you out. Also, don't forget to leave yourself some aloted time for you and Mark. Even if it is just an hour or two a week when it has nothing to do with weddings or school or work. Just have some fun. I think that's another thing that helps to keep the spirits up. Good luck hon!

[WhiskeyGirl]

Jenn

I really think you should see your doctor!! I had some similar problems to the ones that you did!! It turned out that my brain chemistry was so screwed up that I could barely function! I really think you should see a doctor! I have lost a lot of friends because of my depression, People no longer wanted to be around me because I was so blah!! (lack of better words!!) Really, make an appointment and talk with your General Practioner! They might just tell you no, you are fine, or they might tell you you need to take something! But don't just let it slide, please see a doctor!

[Jenn060306]

Jenn

I really think you should see your doctor!! I had some similar problems to the ones that you did!! It turned out that my brain chemistry was so screwed up that I could barely function! I really think you should see a doctor! I have lost a lot of friends because of my depression, People no longer wanted to be around me because I was so blah!! (lack of better words!!) Really, make an appointment and talk with your General Practioner! They might just tell you no, you are fine, or they might tell you you need to take something! But don't just let it slide, please see a doctor!

Thanks Shawna,
I already do know my chemistry is off and i am taking somthing for it. I have never had any blood tests in regards to it. But I do have an appointment coming up soon to check my progress. So i will definatly be talking to her about my trouble sleeping and lack of motivation to do anything. I can't help but wonder if i will be ok when everything gets back to normal with school.
I'm starting to feel like i am annoying my friends, alot because i really don't have much to do right now and not being able to go to class, not having a job, and the stressses of planning the wedding has really been wearing hard on me. I am now in jepoardy of loosing my year and may possibly have to take a summer semester which would be from May to August. :bbeek:

[WhiskeyGirl]

Thanks Shawna,
I already do know my chemistry is off and i am taking somthing for it. I have never had any blood tests in regards to it. But I do have an appointment coming up soon to check my progress. So i will definatly be talking to her about my trouble sleeping and lack of motivation to do anything. I can't help but wonder if i will be ok when everything gets back to normal with school.
I'm starting to feel like i am annoying my friends, alot because i really don't have much to do right now and not being able to go to class, not having a job, and the stressses of planning the wedding has really been wearing hard on me. I am now in jepoardy of loosing my year and may possibly have to take a summer semester which would be from May to August. :bbeek:

Who knows, maybe the doctor will even say its stress and give you something to help cope with that!! I hate to hear that you are feeling this way! Its such a crappy way to feel really!! What are some of your favorite things to do? Try one of them and relax and really enjoy it!! Take care Jennabear!! lol

[Jenn060306]

Who knows, maybe the doctor will even say its stress and give you something to help cope with that!! I hate to hear that you are feeling this way! Its such a crappy way to feel really!! What are some of your favorite things to do? Try one of them and relax and really enjoy it!! Take care Jennabear!! lol
lol thanks!
I think you're right. As things progress i may need a way to get through this. Yesterday we went to a tasting at the reception venue with my parents and i was so grumpy and depressed when i got there. It was so busy and loud. I could barely hear anything anyone was saying so i just had a bit of snit and wouldn't talk to anyone cause there was no point. I am feeling better today, but i just have to take it a day at a time it seems.
The good thing is! The Strike is over and i will be back in classes on Wednesday so hopefully i will be able to get more done because i have more to do (every time i say that it sounds so backwards). But.... then with having so much more on my plate again i think i might just loose more control. EEK! I will definatly need to plan some nervous breakdown days with Mark in the next 2 months so we can rent some movies and be quiet. Together. That's my favourite thing. Also.... If i can.... I want to get back into painting. That's one of my favourite things to do. It's just been so hard cause we haven't got alot of space here.
Thanks Shawna, you've been alot of help to me :)

[ikkin510]

Jenn I'm glad the strike is over now. Did it affect the end of the semester at all? Good luck with all the work, and I hope things go smoothly for you!

[Jenn060306]

Jenn I'm glad the strike is over now. Did it affect the end of the semester at all? Good luck with all the work, and I hope things go smoothly for you!
Thanks, i really hope everything go smoothly too. I will find out this week when all my projects will be due now and how much work i will have.
It has extended the semester by 2 weeks. I was supposed to be done on the 14th of April but now i will be done on the 28th. I'm ok with that because it will still give me a month before the wedding. I was getting really worried that i would have to do a summer semester which would have began May 8th if they were back from the strike.

[WhiskeyGirl]

lol thanks!
I think you're right. As things progress i may need a way to get through this. Yesterday we went to a tasting at the reception venue with my parents and i was so grumpy and depressed when i got there. It was so busy and loud. I could barely hear anything anyone was saying so i just had a bit of snit and wouldn't talk to anyone cause there was no point. I am feeling better today, but i just have to take it a day at a time it seems.
The good thing is! The Strike is over and i will be back in classes on Wednesday so hopefully i will be able to get more done because i have more to do (every time i say that it sounds so backwards). But.... then with having so much more on my plate again i think i might just loose more control. EEK! I will definatly need to plan some nervous breakdown days with Mark in the next 2 months so we can rent some movies and be quiet. Together. That's my favourite thing. Also.... If i can.... I want to get back into painting. That's one of my favourite things to do. It's just been so hard cause we haven't got alot of space here.
Thanks Shawna, you've been alot of help to me :)

You are very welcome Hun!! Take care of yourself and try and take it easy!! Glad to hear school is up and running again!! :)