Samantha & Marks journey before, during & after conceiving

[samantha01]

Well, thought I would start this journal, because I really enjoyed keeping a wedding journal at onewed.
Mark and I have been together going on 5 years now and we were married on 10/6/07. I am 27 and I work in health insurance and he is 28 and is a union pipefitter.
We went from thinking we didn't want kids to making plans to start TTC next year.
Our original thoughts were to go off the pill next fall, but I think I'm going to go off before that.
We are going on a cruise in Feb, and I do not want to be pregnant on the cruise, so heres what I'm thinking.
I just got a three month supply of BC pills and that will last me through March. I'm thinking after those run out, just not buying anymore. We will probably just use the "pull out" method until later in the summer, but if it happens it happens.
I am very close to my sisters and my cousins. There are 6 of us girls and we are pretty close in age. I'm the oldest of my family and my cousin Windy is the oldest in her family and we are the only two out of the six that do not have children. She just found out that she was pregnant, which is GREAT. Her sister just had a baby in Nov, so I want our kids to be similar in age.
Mark and I are just extremely scared to become parents...please tell me that is normal.

[WendyNC]

YES you do not want to be pregnant on a cruise... omg...

I am scared to be a parent. I'm pretty sure my husband is scared. He gained some weight and is having trouble losing it, I told him it was stress!! Anyone who ISN'T scared to be a parent is probably in a little bit of denial, hehe.

[s_r_d3]

I was scared of becoming a parent up to the day I gave birth. Its completely normal.

I dont know you but Im sure you'll make both make great parents. I think it would be cool if you could have a baby close in age to your cousins baby, that way they always have someone to play with.

[samantha01]

I wore a lose fitting shirt for Christmas at my g-ma's and I think 4 people asked me if I was pregnant. I wanted to shout NO i've just been eating like a pig for the past month.
I think I've decided to just not get a refill on my BC, so that means we will start TTC in March....OMG, I'm so scared and so nervous. I hope that going off the pill helps my sex drive otherwise there will be no baby because there is no sex....hahahhaha

[NicksBride]

aww I am sure they were just hoping you were pregnant. You know the saying "First comes love, then comes marriage, then a little baby in the baby carriage" hahahahaha
you will be great parents, don't worry when you TTC the sex drive will be there. :)

[samantha01]

THe other day Mark said "why don't you go off the pill this week" Men are so funny. I was like first of all honey, I would need to wait until my next period and then just not take them. Another thing, I would really rather not be prego on the cruise in Feb.
I think he just wants our old sex life back and he knows that it is known that the pill sometimes has an effect on that.
Here are a couple pics from New Years Eve. Glad I'm not pregnant cause I might have had a couple too many drinks...hahah
http://i128.photobucket.com/albums/p171/community01/NewYears2008-59.jpg
Me and my Hubby
http://i128.photobucket.com/albums/p171/community01/NewYears2008-37.jpg
My sister in law in red and my friend Sheena on the right side of me.
http://i128.photobucket.com/albums/p171/community01/NewYears2008-64.jpg
My brother in law and I

[Jenn060306]

Hi! good Luck on TTC. It can be a very long, but rewarding road!
I wish you all the best in TTC.

[samantha01]

Man i haven't written in this thing in forever. So, I've been really concentrating on working out and losing weight so I probably won't go off the pill until I drop some weight.
We are getting ready to leave on the cruise tomorrow so of course the diet will go out the window until I get back.
A lot of times when I'm doing something at home or going somewhere I'll just stop and think..."what would this be like if we had a kid"
Wow...the committment and work that will go into it. Man its going to be tough but I'm sure very rewarding.
I think we are going to put off TTC until summer or fall. We'll see and I'll make sure I keep everyone posted.